Well hello there! I guess I took the summer off...that's my excuse anyway. But the last week or so I've had lots of blog subjects pop into my head. So I decided last week that August 1 I would get back into it. I
So, here I am. August 1...My parents' anniversary...32 years of marriage deserves a shout out!
Let's see, I guess I'll take today to just catch up. Most of May and June was spent playing t-ball. I think baseball is my favorite thing about being a mom to an active little boy. I loved watching baseball in high school and I really hope he continues to play and get better and better. We had an awesome team of kiddos this summer and they played so good! We're getting ready now for fall ball and I'm so excited about that too!
July was a super fun month. For starters the family that I was really hoping would buy our house signed a contract. There ARE a few stipulations and I AM getting a little nervous about it, but I'm just praying that all goes well. We spent an entire week at my parents' lake house. Probably my favorite place on earth. I knew it would be extremely hard this summer to really vacation, so that week at the lake was wonderful! Then, I got to go to this year's Scentsy Family Reunion with my very best friend. We had the best time! We road tripped all the way to Indianapolis. We laughed SO much and acted silly, which is what we do best! I love my job and our Scentsy Family and I'm so glad I get to share it all with her now too! Convention, or "Reunion" as it is now called is a big deal for us. We get good training, good motivation, and then new product reveals and free product on top of that! Scentsy is the best company to work for! Then, as one last hoorah before school starts back we took the kids to Andy Alligators and spent a few nights in Norman. They had a blast and we even got some school clothes shopping done!
Now here we are in August. I'm not really sure if I'm ready for school to start. I'm excited for Landon, but I'm also a little sad. I'm also really nervous about all that this month holds for us. Seems to be a trend for me...fill my plate as full as possible without spilling over and then fret about getting it all done. Here's my to do list for now:
1. Legacy Church's 5th Annual School Supply Give Away (August 3)
2. Legacy Church's Vacation Bible School (August 5-9)
3. Latta's Enrollment (August 6)
4. Trustee Meeting @ Church (August 14)
5. Landon's First Day of School (August 15)
6. Get Ella enrolled at Good Sheppard Academy
7. Paint, Carpet, etc at temporary home
8. Close on this house
9. Prepare for BIG MOVING SALE
10. MOVE
11. Start Fall Ball Practices, order uniforms and hats for new players
12.County Fair...kids are showing horses and goats
13. Begin the Building Process!
Anyway, I'm going to stop now because I just feel like I'm whining. Everything on this to do list is a blessing to me and I'm very thankful to have these opportunities and be able to do them. I typed them all out and now I am praying for God's blessing on each of these activities. I pray that he helps me all along the way in all of these activities and that I do them all to the glory of His kingdom. And I also pray that if I ever need to step down or step back from one of these activities and pray a little more before carrying on, that I see that and let Him lead and guide me on.
Well, I hope to begin blogging more and I also hope to learn about blogging and make my blog better and better. I hope to gain readers and reach out to those who do read. I apologize today didn't really have a good topic, just a lot of babbling, but expect more from me tomorrow!
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
It's a miracle!
I have NO idea why I am still up tonight?!?! I hope it doesn't make for a horrible day tomorrow, I am SO ready to be back to normal...well...my version of normal anyway. I have been SO extremely sick! It was the worst cold/sinus/allergy crud I've had yet! I think I'm finally on the mend though and I caught myself up on paperwork and grocery shopping today. I managed pretty well through the sickness on laundry, dishes, and housework. I mean, it's not perfect, but it's tidy and all the laundry and dishes are done! I did a whole lot of sleeping over the last few days. Thank God Alan was around as much as he was and I have good friends and a good mama that will help me when they know I'm dying! One of those days, Alan asked me if I was getting depressed. I was like, "What? Of course I'm depressed...I feel like death." He was worried that because I was staying in bed so much that that meant I was slipping into a depression. It bothers me so bad that it is automatically assumed so quickly that when a woman's body finally slows her down and simply cannot go anymore without stopping for a little bit that she is "depressed." I'm not cranky with Alan, I mean, I'm thankful that he was concerned and had the gumption to ask me about it, but just in general. If a man got sick or whatever and stayed in bed I guess we would probably think there was something horribly wrong with them...but I think my question would be, "Do you have a terminal disease? Do I need to take you to the ER?" LOL! I don't know...just a random thought.
Well, it's May...for some the teachers and the kiddos it seems to be getting very busy. Awards banquets, field trips, finals etc. It actually seems to be slowing down for us. Ah...I shouldn't have said it...crazy things will happen now...but really, I think April was our crazy month. On paper, the next few weeks look to be pretty easy. The biggest thing we have going right now is happening day after tomorrow. Landon will go back up to the Pediatric Dentist in Norman for his big procedure. He will be sedated so that they can fill and cap about 8 cavities. Gah...I hate saying that...8 cavities. It makes me feel like such a failure. It honestly could not have been prevented though...I really believe that. That child has loved to brush his teeth or have them brushed ever since the first one came in...before that really...we had those little rubber things you put on your finger and rub their little gums...he loved it! He even like for us to get those flosser things we use and floss his teeth for him. He was not a bottle baby, he had very little formula...I just don't get it. The worst things he does is yes, chew gum, yes, eat candy (seldom though), and yes, drink apple juice and sports drinks. But seriously, if those things are to blame, I'd hate to see what SOME kids' teeth look like. Anyway, off my rant. His poor little teeth are just all really close together and so they say there's a lot of places that are not actual cavities...just spots they worry about decaying. He does have 2 large cavities on some molars though. I'm really thankful for the advancements they have in dentistry today. I had horrible teeth when I was his age (blamed on the baby bottle), and it was not a pleasant experience ANY time I had to go to the dentist. It's a little scary, but with one visit, they will be able to go in and fix all of the teeth at the same time, no shots, no numbness, and when he wakes up, they say, NO PAIN! I'm just ready for that last part! :)
After my trip to the grocery store today, I'm determined to get us all on a better diet and healthier. I've slowly been bringing healthier foods into our kitchen and of course Alan and I have been on ACE for almost 2 months now, but today, I brought home a few more herbs and vitamins and different fruits and veggies that we're not used to. It's funny because Landon loves fruit but not so much veggies, Ella likes veggies and not so much...well...Ella likes everything! LOL! Speaking of Ella, I hope we don't have to worry too much about her teeth...bless her heart she's got gaps in between nearly all of her's big enough to drive a truck through! Our family dentist says this is a good sign that her grown up teeth will have plenty of room to come in.
Anyway, It's getting later and later, and I'm just rambling. So I'm going to sign off for now, but I leave you with two recipes of some health stuff we'll be trying. Well...one I've been drinking for about 2 months now and LOVE!!!
1. Lemon Cucumber Water. I love this and I've been drinking it since before spring break. I found myself feeling dehydrated alot and I knew I wasn't drinking near enough water. When you're taking ACE or most any dietary supplement water is key. So, I saw this metablolism boosting water recipe on pinterest and figured I'd try to spruce my water pitcher up to see if I'd drink it any better and it worked! I drink countless classes of it and if I run out and fail to remake it I notice for sure! Just fill your pitcher up with water, cut up one lemon, one cucumber, and some fresh mint leaves. Let it set in the fridge over night so the water is infused with the flavors. When you get up in the morning and go to take your meds or vitamins, etc. fix ya big ole glass of that and you'll feel the difference in your morning before you're glass is half empty...half full...half empty...whatever...it tastes really good. Each ingredient does something different for your body and metabolism...I can't remember each one, but google it, pinterest it, look it up, try it, you'll like it!
2. Dr. Oz's 3 day jump start cleanse. I think that's what he called it. Anyway, google this too. I'm starting it tomorrow. Dr. Oz had this other doctor on his show...I think it was April 30. His whole thing was saying that everything that happens to us has something to do with our "gut." I hate that word, but that's the word he used. Things that happen in our brain, even our seretonin levels, our hair, our skin, everything, has to do with what's going on in our stomach! Anyway, it's a shake that you drink in the morning, some vitamins, and a pro-biotic. The pro-biotic will be good for me right now anyway since I've been on anti-biotics. The shake includes: baby spinach, almond milk, blueberries, a banana, and some plant-based protien mix. I'm a little nervous, but I think it'll be really good. I'm not much of a breakfast person, but I like doing the shakes, so I'm hoping I'll like this and make it a routine. I want to go try it right now just typing about it, but I'll wait!
Okay, well, hope I log back on soon and have great things to tell you...until then...
Well, it's May...for some the teachers and the kiddos it seems to be getting very busy. Awards banquets, field trips, finals etc. It actually seems to be slowing down for us. Ah...I shouldn't have said it...crazy things will happen now...but really, I think April was our crazy month. On paper, the next few weeks look to be pretty easy. The biggest thing we have going right now is happening day after tomorrow. Landon will go back up to the Pediatric Dentist in Norman for his big procedure. He will be sedated so that they can fill and cap about 8 cavities. Gah...I hate saying that...8 cavities. It makes me feel like such a failure. It honestly could not have been prevented though...I really believe that. That child has loved to brush his teeth or have them brushed ever since the first one came in...before that really...we had those little rubber things you put on your finger and rub their little gums...he loved it! He even like for us to get those flosser things we use and floss his teeth for him. He was not a bottle baby, he had very little formula...I just don't get it. The worst things he does is yes, chew gum, yes, eat candy (seldom though), and yes, drink apple juice and sports drinks. But seriously, if those things are to blame, I'd hate to see what SOME kids' teeth look like. Anyway, off my rant. His poor little teeth are just all really close together and so they say there's a lot of places that are not actual cavities...just spots they worry about decaying. He does have 2 large cavities on some molars though. I'm really thankful for the advancements they have in dentistry today. I had horrible teeth when I was his age (blamed on the baby bottle), and it was not a pleasant experience ANY time I had to go to the dentist. It's a little scary, but with one visit, they will be able to go in and fix all of the teeth at the same time, no shots, no numbness, and when he wakes up, they say, NO PAIN! I'm just ready for that last part! :)
After my trip to the grocery store today, I'm determined to get us all on a better diet and healthier. I've slowly been bringing healthier foods into our kitchen and of course Alan and I have been on ACE for almost 2 months now, but today, I brought home a few more herbs and vitamins and different fruits and veggies that we're not used to. It's funny because Landon loves fruit but not so much veggies, Ella likes veggies and not so much...well...Ella likes everything! LOL! Speaking of Ella, I hope we don't have to worry too much about her teeth...bless her heart she's got gaps in between nearly all of her's big enough to drive a truck through! Our family dentist says this is a good sign that her grown up teeth will have plenty of room to come in.
Anyway, It's getting later and later, and I'm just rambling. So I'm going to sign off for now, but I leave you with two recipes of some health stuff we'll be trying. Well...one I've been drinking for about 2 months now and LOVE!!!
1. Lemon Cucumber Water. I love this and I've been drinking it since before spring break. I found myself feeling dehydrated alot and I knew I wasn't drinking near enough water. When you're taking ACE or most any dietary supplement water is key. So, I saw this metablolism boosting water recipe on pinterest and figured I'd try to spruce my water pitcher up to see if I'd drink it any better and it worked! I drink countless classes of it and if I run out and fail to remake it I notice for sure! Just fill your pitcher up with water, cut up one lemon, one cucumber, and some fresh mint leaves. Let it set in the fridge over night so the water is infused with the flavors. When you get up in the morning and go to take your meds or vitamins, etc. fix ya big ole glass of that and you'll feel the difference in your morning before you're glass is half empty...half full...half empty...whatever...it tastes really good. Each ingredient does something different for your body and metabolism...I can't remember each one, but google it, pinterest it, look it up, try it, you'll like it!
2. Dr. Oz's 3 day jump start cleanse. I think that's what he called it. Anyway, google this too. I'm starting it tomorrow. Dr. Oz had this other doctor on his show...I think it was April 30. His whole thing was saying that everything that happens to us has something to do with our "gut." I hate that word, but that's the word he used. Things that happen in our brain, even our seretonin levels, our hair, our skin, everything, has to do with what's going on in our stomach! Anyway, it's a shake that you drink in the morning, some vitamins, and a pro-biotic. The pro-biotic will be good for me right now anyway since I've been on anti-biotics. The shake includes: baby spinach, almond milk, blueberries, a banana, and some plant-based protien mix. I'm a little nervous, but I think it'll be really good. I'm not much of a breakfast person, but I like doing the shakes, so I'm hoping I'll like this and make it a routine. I want to go try it right now just typing about it, but I'll wait!
Okay, well, hope I log back on soon and have great things to tell you...until then...
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
A lot of pain
April brought a lot of pain to my household and I'm ready to say hello to May and see what she holds in store for us!
We found ourselves a little "over budget" at the end of March because...well...I go overboard on birthday parties and Landon's 5th was no excpetion. We also had our spring break trip in there...so...anyway...we pretty much started April out ALREADY broke! Even when I got my Scentsy pay, it all had places it had to go. I'm selling ACE now too (wonderful product...ask me about it), and that pays really well, but when I put in my bank info for direct deposit I made a typo so I'm still waiting on about $100!
Then we had one hellish week there when everybody seemed to be running in different directions with a million things going on. Dentist appointments, field trips, soccer, tball, gymnastics, karate...just when stress levels were getting high, we lost one of our fur babies...Landon's little guy, Rocky :( We waited about a week and then took him to the animal shelter to let him "adopt" a new baby and so things got a little better around here. Sciut is our new buddy, he's part lab, part beagle and he's beautiful! He has a funny little bark though, lol!
About a week ago, we had a family come and look at our house (Yay! We're getting closer to closing on our land!) We felt really positive about this family. He told Alan he would talk to the bank...aaaand...we haven't heard back from them...that was a real bummer!
Then, the absolute worst heartache I've ever felt hit me over this past weekend. It's crazy...okay...started out when a hose came loose on my washer and flooded my laundry room, kitchen, and living room...as if cleaning up that mess wasn't enough for one day, while I was loading all the laundry into my car, in the garage, MY fur baby, of nearly 8 years,got out in the front. Now...we live really close to a county road that people drive crazy on...anyway...long story short...I had to face the reality that my Rosie girl is gone. I'm pretty sure I literally lost my mind for about 24 hours. That's all I want to say about all that.
Anway...I'm feeling back to myself, just today...seems like I went about 2 weeks there where I had no life in me. I didn't want to get up, didn't want to clean house, didn't want to fix my hair or put on make-up, didn't want to do anything more than I absolutely had to with my kids...I was grouchy, cranky, and lazy! I'm seriously beginning to think this is all hormone related...I just don't really know. Anyway...I'm going to take advantage of feeling better and tomorrow being the first day of a new month...an exciting month!!!
We found ourselves a little "over budget" at the end of March because...well...I go overboard on birthday parties and Landon's 5th was no excpetion. We also had our spring break trip in there...so...anyway...we pretty much started April out ALREADY broke! Even when I got my Scentsy pay, it all had places it had to go. I'm selling ACE now too (wonderful product...ask me about it), and that pays really well, but when I put in my bank info for direct deposit I made a typo so I'm still waiting on about $100!
Then we had one hellish week there when everybody seemed to be running in different directions with a million things going on. Dentist appointments, field trips, soccer, tball, gymnastics, karate...just when stress levels were getting high, we lost one of our fur babies...Landon's little guy, Rocky :( We waited about a week and then took him to the animal shelter to let him "adopt" a new baby and so things got a little better around here. Sciut is our new buddy, he's part lab, part beagle and he's beautiful! He has a funny little bark though, lol!
About a week ago, we had a family come and look at our house (Yay! We're getting closer to closing on our land!) We felt really positive about this family. He told Alan he would talk to the bank...aaaand...we haven't heard back from them...that was a real bummer!
Then, the absolute worst heartache I've ever felt hit me over this past weekend. It's crazy...okay...started out when a hose came loose on my washer and flooded my laundry room, kitchen, and living room...as if cleaning up that mess wasn't enough for one day, while I was loading all the laundry into my car, in the garage, MY fur baby, of nearly 8 years,got out in the front. Now...we live really close to a county road that people drive crazy on...anyway...long story short...I had to face the reality that my Rosie girl is gone. I'm pretty sure I literally lost my mind for about 24 hours. That's all I want to say about all that.
Anway...I'm feeling back to myself, just today...seems like I went about 2 weeks there where I had no life in me. I didn't want to get up, didn't want to clean house, didn't want to fix my hair or put on make-up, didn't want to do anything more than I absolutely had to with my kids...I was grouchy, cranky, and lazy! I'm seriously beginning to think this is all hormone related...I just don't really know. Anyway...I'm going to take advantage of feeling better and tomorrow being the first day of a new month...an exciting month!!!
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Just Keep Swimming
So...I told you several weeks ago I was starting a new book called Early To Rise: A 30 Day Challenge. I encourage you to check it out. Whether you are a stay at home mom like me who needs a little more motivation in her day or a busy work woman who doesn't find enough time in her day for herself, this book is REALLY good!
So far I have not met my challenge for myself, but that's okay, I'm setting goals, I'm learning what will work for me, and I'm getting there. What is really frustrating is that it always seems like someone is trying to stop me from meeting my goal...Satan maybe?
Of course to rise early you must first go to bed early...that rarely happens at our house. Whether it is Alan's busy schedule, the kids' busy schedule, or the night owl in me, I just can't seem to get in bed before midnight!
The author of the book says that with the extra hour or so that you have before everyone else in your house wakes up you should do something for yourself...sit down and have a cup of whatever wakes you up, pray, meditate, have a moment with God, read; whether it be this particular book, the Bible, or something else you are studying, write; make your list for the day, write a blog, write a letter. We all have some form of "art" in us...he says this is the time to use that art.
When I first starting reading the book I thought I would use that extra hour or so to get started on my housework that I can never seem to get done with my little monsters running around, but he says not to focus on that stuff just yet. You are to use that hour for YOU.
Last night I tried really hard to get to bed earlier. I laid down at about 10:30. I read a little bit trying to relax my mind. The book says to do something relaxing before bed, not something that causes you stress or worry. Lots of people watch the news before bed...that causes worry and stress. Anyway, so I'm reading my happy little book and in walks my dear husband starting up a conversation about what all needs to be done to get this house ready to sale. This causes me MUCH worry and stress and this conversation turns into a 45 minute discussion about everything under the sun. Ugh! I got so worked up and stressed out thinking about all of the things going on these next few months and how much money all of that was going to take.
I did eventually roll over and fall asleep, but for absolutely no known reason I was wide awake by 3:15. Now...I want to rise early, but not quite that early! I laid there with a sleepy body and sleepy eyes, but a mind full of busy stuff. At about 4am Landon came to bed with us. I snuggled with him for a little while, got up and got a drink, laid back down, tossed and turned. Then by about 5am Ella joined us. She of course needed more milk and some strange conversation about the fan. I tried to get up once and just go ahead and start my day, but she started crying so I laid back down to keep her from waking everyone else up. She finally got back into a good sleep by about 6:30 so I came to the living room and picked up the laptop.
I'm not in the habit yet of going to bed early and getting up early, but I've set my goals and I'm working on it. The author encourages readers to publicly post their progress, so I figured I'd use this blog to do so. I really feel like getting into this healthy habit is going to help me reach those goals I sat at the beginning of the year.
I guess I'll move onto another part of my day since my poor son seems to really be struggling with getting dressed this morning...he's so sleepy...gee...I wonder why?!?!
So far I have not met my challenge for myself, but that's okay, I'm setting goals, I'm learning what will work for me, and I'm getting there. What is really frustrating is that it always seems like someone is trying to stop me from meeting my goal...Satan maybe?
Of course to rise early you must first go to bed early...that rarely happens at our house. Whether it is Alan's busy schedule, the kids' busy schedule, or the night owl in me, I just can't seem to get in bed before midnight!
The author of the book says that with the extra hour or so that you have before everyone else in your house wakes up you should do something for yourself...sit down and have a cup of whatever wakes you up, pray, meditate, have a moment with God, read; whether it be this particular book, the Bible, or something else you are studying, write; make your list for the day, write a blog, write a letter. We all have some form of "art" in us...he says this is the time to use that art.
When I first starting reading the book I thought I would use that extra hour or so to get started on my housework that I can never seem to get done with my little monsters running around, but he says not to focus on that stuff just yet. You are to use that hour for YOU.
Last night I tried really hard to get to bed earlier. I laid down at about 10:30. I read a little bit trying to relax my mind. The book says to do something relaxing before bed, not something that causes you stress or worry. Lots of people watch the news before bed...that causes worry and stress. Anyway, so I'm reading my happy little book and in walks my dear husband starting up a conversation about what all needs to be done to get this house ready to sale. This causes me MUCH worry and stress and this conversation turns into a 45 minute discussion about everything under the sun. Ugh! I got so worked up and stressed out thinking about all of the things going on these next few months and how much money all of that was going to take.
I did eventually roll over and fall asleep, but for absolutely no known reason I was wide awake by 3:15. Now...I want to rise early, but not quite that early! I laid there with a sleepy body and sleepy eyes, but a mind full of busy stuff. At about 4am Landon came to bed with us. I snuggled with him for a little while, got up and got a drink, laid back down, tossed and turned. Then by about 5am Ella joined us. She of course needed more milk and some strange conversation about the fan. I tried to get up once and just go ahead and start my day, but she started crying so I laid back down to keep her from waking everyone else up. She finally got back into a good sleep by about 6:30 so I came to the living room and picked up the laptop.
I'm not in the habit yet of going to bed early and getting up early, but I've set my goals and I'm working on it. The author encourages readers to publicly post their progress, so I figured I'd use this blog to do so. I really feel like getting into this healthy habit is going to help me reach those goals I sat at the beginning of the year.
I guess I'll move onto another part of my day since my poor son seems to really be struggling with getting dressed this morning...he's so sleepy...gee...I wonder why?!?!
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Get Going!
Yo...haha...I say yo because I'm currently catching up on tonight's American Idol. Oh my goodness I love this year's competition! I will say...Kree Harrison is my pick! And alot of people would think I was crazy, but I love Nicki Minaj...she is so funny and I feel like I could actually be freinds with her, lol!
Well, I was called out again about my blogging tonight...that's what I need sometimes, a good swift kick in the bottom to hold me accountable. And I'm here to admit to you all that I've been pitted out again. What does this to me? I hate it. When describing it to one of my friends she assured me I'm not the only one who feels this way sometimes. Honestly it's a vicious cycle, it starts when I miss just ONE day of my routine, which is horrible because it happens all the time! But if I miss one day of picking up after everyone, doing several loads of laundry, keeping the kitchen clean, etc, I lose it! It all happens so fast. The house gets cluttered, the laundry piles up either needing to be washed, needing to be folded, or needing to be put away. So when the house looks like that I want to stay in my little cave (my bedroom) and not get up. I don't want to come into the living room and see how messy it is. I don't want to step into the kitchen and smell last nights supper still sitting on the stove. I don't want to try to find clothes to put on in my piled up laundry room. I don't want to go into the bathroom to try to put on makeup or fix my hair with dirty pull-ups and pajamas laying in the floor. Then, if on top of that, there are a million things going on that I'm SUPPOSED to be doing it gets even worse. I nearly make myself sick stressing out instead of getting up off my butt and doing something about all of it. I feel like it all just sits on my shoulders and weighs me down and makes me tired to just think about it! The last several weeks have been crammed packed with things going on, things happening around us, and I just got bogged down.
I told you in one of my previous blogs about all that we have going on from now until the end of the year. I wish I could block some of it out and just focus on a week at a time, but so many of those things on my "list" require weeks and weeks of preparation. I'm not saying I have any more on my plate than anyone else, I know I don't, but there's this quality (or defect) about me that makes each one of those things on my "list" seem to be a much bigger deal than they really are. So then I overwhelm myself thinking about them and feeling like I have so much to do. I wish I could capitalize I more than it already is, because I'm trying to emphasize that I feel like I'm doing all on my own. This blog is helping me to realize I'm NOT doing it alone. When I feel overwhelmed all I need to do is stop, take a deep breath and give it to God. Pray about it. He WANTS to help me. He doesn't want me to try to do it all on my own.
Several things are helping me come out of my pit this time.
1. I HAVE to get my house in order, not only to get me back on track, but because spring break is coming and I refuse to go through it in a messy house!
2. My son. I'm telling you, just to see him at school, or a church, or any other activity, you can NOT possibly see how mature he is. He is so smart and observant. He sees me when I'm up and he sees me when I'm down. I want to be better for him!
3. Summer is coming and I want to lose weight like everyone else. I have two best friends who want to lose weight and what a better way to do it than together?!?
4. Our spring break trip is nearly here and that will be a revitalizing trip to help me come back home and carry on with all I need to accomplish.
5. I started a new book called Early To Rise. You should check it out. It's a 30 day challenge to show you how much better you days can be if you just get up out of the bed EARLY. I'm never early for anything and this is about to change. Getting up early is going to help me with house work, weight loss, my spiritual walk, and my ability to be a blessing to others. You know...you have to be healthy physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually to be able to help anyone else. It's okay to help yourself first so that you can be better for others.
6. Plans are coming together quite nicely for Landon's birthday party and that will be a big task off my list.
7. I AM starting an energy supplement. I have to do something to get going!!!
Still on the list:
1. Getting our taxes done ( I know...)
2. T-Ball practice starting, getting our team registered, getting uniforms ordered
3. Soccer practices every Monday and games every Saturday until May
4. Spring Break trip
5. Landon's Birthday party
6. Easter
7. Upcoming consignment sale
8. Selling our home
9. Closing on our new place
10. Moving.
11. Beginning the building process
My eyes are starting to cross from fatigue, so I apologize for any typos, but I can't possibly proof read tonight.
Until tomorrow (or whenever)!
Well, I was called out again about my blogging tonight...that's what I need sometimes, a good swift kick in the bottom to hold me accountable. And I'm here to admit to you all that I've been pitted out again. What does this to me? I hate it. When describing it to one of my friends she assured me I'm not the only one who feels this way sometimes. Honestly it's a vicious cycle, it starts when I miss just ONE day of my routine, which is horrible because it happens all the time! But if I miss one day of picking up after everyone, doing several loads of laundry, keeping the kitchen clean, etc, I lose it! It all happens so fast. The house gets cluttered, the laundry piles up either needing to be washed, needing to be folded, or needing to be put away. So when the house looks like that I want to stay in my little cave (my bedroom) and not get up. I don't want to come into the living room and see how messy it is. I don't want to step into the kitchen and smell last nights supper still sitting on the stove. I don't want to try to find clothes to put on in my piled up laundry room. I don't want to go into the bathroom to try to put on makeup or fix my hair with dirty pull-ups and pajamas laying in the floor. Then, if on top of that, there are a million things going on that I'm SUPPOSED to be doing it gets even worse. I nearly make myself sick stressing out instead of getting up off my butt and doing something about all of it. I feel like it all just sits on my shoulders and weighs me down and makes me tired to just think about it! The last several weeks have been crammed packed with things going on, things happening around us, and I just got bogged down.
I told you in one of my previous blogs about all that we have going on from now until the end of the year. I wish I could block some of it out and just focus on a week at a time, but so many of those things on my "list" require weeks and weeks of preparation. I'm not saying I have any more on my plate than anyone else, I know I don't, but there's this quality (or defect) about me that makes each one of those things on my "list" seem to be a much bigger deal than they really are. So then I overwhelm myself thinking about them and feeling like I have so much to do. I wish I could capitalize I more than it already is, because I'm trying to emphasize that I feel like I'm doing all on my own. This blog is helping me to realize I'm NOT doing it alone. When I feel overwhelmed all I need to do is stop, take a deep breath and give it to God. Pray about it. He WANTS to help me. He doesn't want me to try to do it all on my own.
Several things are helping me come out of my pit this time.
1. I HAVE to get my house in order, not only to get me back on track, but because spring break is coming and I refuse to go through it in a messy house!
2. My son. I'm telling you, just to see him at school, or a church, or any other activity, you can NOT possibly see how mature he is. He is so smart and observant. He sees me when I'm up and he sees me when I'm down. I want to be better for him!
3. Summer is coming and I want to lose weight like everyone else. I have two best friends who want to lose weight and what a better way to do it than together?!?
4. Our spring break trip is nearly here and that will be a revitalizing trip to help me come back home and carry on with all I need to accomplish.
5. I started a new book called Early To Rise. You should check it out. It's a 30 day challenge to show you how much better you days can be if you just get up out of the bed EARLY. I'm never early for anything and this is about to change. Getting up early is going to help me with house work, weight loss, my spiritual walk, and my ability to be a blessing to others. You know...you have to be healthy physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually to be able to help anyone else. It's okay to help yourself first so that you can be better for others.
6. Plans are coming together quite nicely for Landon's birthday party and that will be a big task off my list.
7. I AM starting an energy supplement. I have to do something to get going!!!
Still on the list:
1. Getting our taxes done ( I know...)
2. T-Ball practice starting, getting our team registered, getting uniforms ordered
3. Soccer practices every Monday and games every Saturday until May
4. Spring Break trip
5. Landon's Birthday party
6. Easter
7. Upcoming consignment sale
8. Selling our home
9. Closing on our new place
10. Moving.
11. Beginning the building process
My eyes are starting to cross from fatigue, so I apologize for any typos, but I can't possibly proof read tonight.
Until tomorrow (or whenever)!
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Rambling
Gasp! I'm finally blogging again. Things have been weird. I've been weird. I guess I just need to admit to myself and everyone else that there is just going be a week out of every month that I'm going to be...not myself. "Duh!" says most women reading this, but wait...I have an IUD, and I don't have...ewww...periods. I have a day or two that I may spot a little bit, but that's about it. But even that really does something to me. I get insanely exhausted and have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I feel so guilty when I get that way. I WANT to get up and do something, but I just DON'T. I apolgize to my children and to my husband because I feel like a failure during this time, which in turn sends me into a tad bit of depression. I'm wondering if it's not time to get rid of the IUD. I'm sure that probably has something to do with the nasty headaches I get. Anyway, I had a few days like that this past week and first part of this week, then I got sick...yucky sick...thought I was dying sick! I went Sunday and got a prescription and I'm doing much better. I got my mojo back yesterday and caught my household back up today. I'm just so thankful it didn't last any longer. I looked back at my last post and I know my hatefulness was related to that and the fact that I was getting very sick. Sorry for venting!
Anyway, I celebrated my 30th birthday in bed, but it was much needed rest and I know that's what made me feel better.
I'm laying in bed typing tonight because this seems to be the place that all of my ideas pop into my head...you know...when I'm supposed to be SLEEPING. Alan used to tell me there was like a button in my head and when I laid it on the pillow I flipped my on switch and started talking...about everything. LOL! Anyway, the last two nights I've found it hard to sleep, and not just because I've slept all day! I lay down and I realize just how much is going on from now until the end of the year. I know that time goes by faster the older we get, and this is going to be the fastest year ever! Starting in March, we have our spring break trip with friends that is much needed, Landon's birthday party, Easter, beginning soccer practice, beginning t-ball practice, then soccer games, t-ball games, summer fun...much welcomed, selling our house, closing on our land, moving, adjusting to a temporary home, breaking ground, building a house, Ella's birthday party, a new baby in the family, Thanksgiving, Christmas, moving into our new home...oh, my goodness!!! Then add in all the usual duties and activities. I'm going to need to stay in the Word, in prayer, and have lots of support from friends and family. I know this is LIFE, but when you lay it all out there it just sure sounds like alot. I think about all those things and think about how weak I am, but at the same time I remind myself who is strong, who can handle it all, who tells me I don't have to do it all alone, well...my husband, yes, but even stronger than him...my Lord. Knowing that he will take those burdens and give me the strength I need to get through makes me smile. I know His way is perfect and even when I think things are going wrong, as long as I give it all to him, his will shall be done. He makes all things good. If I can keep that perspective I'll survive. I was hoping to lose some weight before summer...maybe the stress will take it off of me!
Well, I think that's enough rambling for tonight. I've gotten caught up and if I stay up much later I will get behind tomorrow.
Terra
Anyway, I celebrated my 30th birthday in bed, but it was much needed rest and I know that's what made me feel better.
I'm laying in bed typing tonight because this seems to be the place that all of my ideas pop into my head...you know...when I'm supposed to be SLEEPING. Alan used to tell me there was like a button in my head and when I laid it on the pillow I flipped my on switch and started talking...about everything. LOL! Anyway, the last two nights I've found it hard to sleep, and not just because I've slept all day! I lay down and I realize just how much is going on from now until the end of the year. I know that time goes by faster the older we get, and this is going to be the fastest year ever! Starting in March, we have our spring break trip with friends that is much needed, Landon's birthday party, Easter, beginning soccer practice, beginning t-ball practice, then soccer games, t-ball games, summer fun...much welcomed, selling our house, closing on our land, moving, adjusting to a temporary home, breaking ground, building a house, Ella's birthday party, a new baby in the family, Thanksgiving, Christmas, moving into our new home...oh, my goodness!!! Then add in all the usual duties and activities. I'm going to need to stay in the Word, in prayer, and have lots of support from friends and family. I know this is LIFE, but when you lay it all out there it just sure sounds like alot. I think about all those things and think about how weak I am, but at the same time I remind myself who is strong, who can handle it all, who tells me I don't have to do it all alone, well...my husband, yes, but even stronger than him...my Lord. Knowing that he will take those burdens and give me the strength I need to get through makes me smile. I know His way is perfect and even when I think things are going wrong, as long as I give it all to him, his will shall be done. He makes all things good. If I can keep that perspective I'll survive. I was hoping to lose some weight before summer...maybe the stress will take it off of me!
Well, I think that's enough rambling for tonight. I've gotten caught up and if I stay up much later I will get behind tomorrow.
Terra
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Slacking
-Sorry! I'm slacking again...this whole week was a whole bunch of doing nothing! Monday-Thursday I did the bare minimum to get by. Hubby had a class in OKC all week and Landon wasn't feeling well, so we were just lazy at home! Thursday night I was informed my husband and two friends had planned a birthday party for me for the next night at our house (I'll be the dirty 30 on Monday). So Friday I did house work and got caught back up.
I wonder sometimes if we expect too much of ourselves and then others pick up on our high expectations for ourself and then they begin to believe we can conquer the world, or if it's the other way around. This is not just a woman thing either...men are that way too. As women we are to live up expectations of our husbands, sisters, mothers, aunts, grandmothers, friends, children, co-workers, bosses and teachers. Men have their wives, brothers, fathers, grandfathers, friends, children, co-workers, bosses and teachers to answer to. If we are not the perfect friend, mother, wife, husband, employee, etc. then it seems we've let someone down and have to explain ourselves. I want to be myself and not explain that. I want to be all that I can be and hopefully those around me will be happy. Just a random thought.
I have had more than one person this week get upset with me because I was not where they wanted me to be when they wanted me to be there...not a responsibility type thing...a leisure type thing...well, I apologize, but my priorities are my husband, children and household. If they are sick, upset, or need attention, that's where I'm going to be. I would hope that you could love me for being dedicated to my family, not expect an apology or explanation and certainly not be ugly to me. Here's something else about me...not very often (almost never) will you see me without one or both (sometimes all 3) of my children. I understand wanting to get away ever now and then...who doesn't...and I know my husband and I need more alone time...but I can NOT just drop my kiddos off on a whim and expect myself to have a good time knowing they are upset or wanting me. I don't have a 9-5 job, I work 24 hours a day and nobody wants a break any more than me, but when I go out to eat, or spend time with church ladies I either have my kids with me or my husband has them, and that last one happens very seldom due to his schedule. It's exhausting and I complain about it sometimes, but they are babies...they need me, and I need to be there for them. They depend on me more than any other human and that makes me feel pretty darn important.
Another random thought I've had this week is about people who starve for attention. We see kids like this all the time, but why do adults act like that? Why do they embellish everything that comes out of their mouth so that we will listen to them?
Geez...I'm sounding really ugly tonight...I think it's time to go bed...just a little frustrated I guess. Everybody gets their grumpy day right? Here's my apology!
Until tomorrow!
Terra
I wonder sometimes if we expect too much of ourselves and then others pick up on our high expectations for ourself and then they begin to believe we can conquer the world, or if it's the other way around. This is not just a woman thing either...men are that way too. As women we are to live up expectations of our husbands, sisters, mothers, aunts, grandmothers, friends, children, co-workers, bosses and teachers. Men have their wives, brothers, fathers, grandfathers, friends, children, co-workers, bosses and teachers to answer to. If we are not the perfect friend, mother, wife, husband, employee, etc. then it seems we've let someone down and have to explain ourselves. I want to be myself and not explain that. I want to be all that I can be and hopefully those around me will be happy. Just a random thought.
I have had more than one person this week get upset with me because I was not where they wanted me to be when they wanted me to be there...not a responsibility type thing...a leisure type thing...well, I apologize, but my priorities are my husband, children and household. If they are sick, upset, or need attention, that's where I'm going to be. I would hope that you could love me for being dedicated to my family, not expect an apology or explanation and certainly not be ugly to me. Here's something else about me...not very often (almost never) will you see me without one or both (sometimes all 3) of my children. I understand wanting to get away ever now and then...who doesn't...and I know my husband and I need more alone time...but I can NOT just drop my kiddos off on a whim and expect myself to have a good time knowing they are upset or wanting me. I don't have a 9-5 job, I work 24 hours a day and nobody wants a break any more than me, but when I go out to eat, or spend time with church ladies I either have my kids with me or my husband has them, and that last one happens very seldom due to his schedule. It's exhausting and I complain about it sometimes, but they are babies...they need me, and I need to be there for them. They depend on me more than any other human and that makes me feel pretty darn important.
Another random thought I've had this week is about people who starve for attention. We see kids like this all the time, but why do adults act like that? Why do they embellish everything that comes out of their mouth so that we will listen to them?
Geez...I'm sounding really ugly tonight...I think it's time to go bed...just a little frustrated I guess. Everybody gets their grumpy day right? Here's my apology!
Until tomorrow!
Terra
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Moving a Little Slow
Well...I've let a few days go by without blogging and I'm sorry, but I'm back tonight and hoping to once again get back on track!
Thursday of this week Landon woke up all stuffy and coughing his head off, so when he cried to me I told him to crawl back in bed. I had an appointment at the chiropractor that day...which, so far, has gotten rid of my headaches! We then spent the afternoon all together...best Valentine's Day ever! We got good news this week that added to the joys of our Valentine's Day...we got a contract on some land we had been looking at! We will be working on selling our house and then we'll close on the new place in May. We will be moving into a little farm house there on the land while we build our home!!! I am so excited! I'm also a little nervous. I'm nervous about things like cabinets and counter tops and paint colors...Alan is nervous about things like payments...yuck! I've told my mom she has to keep me positive about living in the little farmhouse...and you readers have to help me through the building process!
Friday was Landon's Valentine's party at school, so Ella and I attended that and took lots of pictures of the fun they had and then brought him home with us afterward.
The reason I've been away from blogging is because I've been exhausted! I worked late on Landon's Valentines for his class...I did the ones from pinterest that had the kool aid and silly straws...big hit! Then Friday night Landon had a friend over to spend the night. They were so good and went to bed at a decent time, but woke up several times in the night ready to play some more...then it seemed like everytime they settled down Ella would wake up. I slept late this morning since Alan was home, then, since the kids had gotten up so early, we all took a good long nap this afternoon. My house had gotten out of control from just one day of not doing anything in it, so tonight I took the time to clean the kitchen, living room, bathroom, do laundry and dishes, sweep, and vaccum. I'm already ready for bed again...since Sundays always make me sleepy, but becasue of the big nap, the kids are still going strong!
I don't really have any deep thoughts for tonight...my brain is still pretty mushy, but I had to at least type a little since it had been a few days.
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Thursday of this week Landon woke up all stuffy and coughing his head off, so when he cried to me I told him to crawl back in bed. I had an appointment at the chiropractor that day...which, so far, has gotten rid of my headaches! We then spent the afternoon all together...best Valentine's Day ever! We got good news this week that added to the joys of our Valentine's Day...we got a contract on some land we had been looking at! We will be working on selling our house and then we'll close on the new place in May. We will be moving into a little farm house there on the land while we build our home!!! I am so excited! I'm also a little nervous. I'm nervous about things like cabinets and counter tops and paint colors...Alan is nervous about things like payments...yuck! I've told my mom she has to keep me positive about living in the little farmhouse...and you readers have to help me through the building process!
Friday was Landon's Valentine's party at school, so Ella and I attended that and took lots of pictures of the fun they had and then brought him home with us afterward.
The reason I've been away from blogging is because I've been exhausted! I worked late on Landon's Valentines for his class...I did the ones from pinterest that had the kool aid and silly straws...big hit! Then Friday night Landon had a friend over to spend the night. They were so good and went to bed at a decent time, but woke up several times in the night ready to play some more...then it seemed like everytime they settled down Ella would wake up. I slept late this morning since Alan was home, then, since the kids had gotten up so early, we all took a good long nap this afternoon. My house had gotten out of control from just one day of not doing anything in it, so tonight I took the time to clean the kitchen, living room, bathroom, do laundry and dishes, sweep, and vaccum. I'm already ready for bed again...since Sundays always make me sleepy, but becasue of the big nap, the kids are still going strong!
I don't really have any deep thoughts for tonight...my brain is still pretty mushy, but I had to at least type a little since it had been a few days.
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Monday, February 11, 2013
Making progress
Hey all! I didn't blog Saturday night because we had company late after our little birthday party, which went great. Like I said, I love to host, especially when it's my parents, sisters, and all the kiddos! We ate, and ate, and ate, and the kids played, and played, and played. Then Sunday we were all exhausted by bedtime and I crashed out before I cold even sit down with the laptop!
But here we are...Monday! Monday was a LAZY day for me. Ella and I stayed in my bed watching Nick Jr until about noon, then we took a nap! Today was karate, so after school we came home and just vegged out until time to go. When we got home I fixed a quick and easy dinner and then we played a while before the kiddos' bedtime. My poor hubby is STILL working on paperwork from last week. I'm just hoping the next few days are good to him so he can get caught up.
I don't want to speak too soon, or sound like I'm tootin' my own horn, but I feel like I have come a long way on two of my goals. I feel very close to my husband right now. I feel like I've learned to speak his love language and keep communication open. Felt like it had shut down there for a while...like we were just kind of here, loving each other, but a little distant. I'm doing more for him, and with him, and I feel like we are both happier right now than we've been in several years. The other thing I feel like I've mastered is maintaining my house. For what ever reason I LOVE laundry these days. I love having empty hampers and full drawers. I love the way my house smells while it's all going. And since Ella has been staying home with me she is learning to help with laundry too and she loves it! I am keeping my kitchen clean, which is usually the dirtiest part of my house. My goal every night is to not have any dirty dishes in the sink when I go to bed. This is challenging because you really have to stay on top of switching over the dishwasher, which is always my least favorite thing to do...I don't know why. We have one of those big long bars in our kitchen that is our catch all when we come in from the garage. I have made it my goal to take about 5 minutes everyday to sort through whatever has been tossed up there and put it where it belongs or throw it away. I have been wiping down the table and sweeping the floor every night after supper too. The kids' are doing great with their chore charts and keeping up with things like dirty clothes and toys. Landon, being my little genuis has memorized what is on his chart and makes sure he's done it all by bedtime. Ella is becoming quite a little mommy and she just likes helping me do whatever I'm doing. One thing we are still having to work on is, when taking toys from the living room back to the bedroom, putting them away instead of just dropping them in the doorway. Ella is still not quite old enough to really CLEAN her room, but I'm trying hard to help her realize that all of her toys have spots and she needs to put them back in their spots. I've decided that Landon is responsible for his room unless he has friends over and then I will help him clean it up one day a week. I found some Scrubbing Bubbles flushable disinfecting wipes which are great for quick maintaince on the bathroom counters, and of course, Ella loves them, so we wipe those down and swish the toilets a couple of times a week. I find an easy way for just quickly cleaning the toilet is to keep some kind of cleaner down in the little toilet brush holder thingy, then you can just grab it, swish it and be done! I used to have a real problem keeping sheets clean...I would take them off the bed, put clean ones on and then pile the dirty ones somewhere until they were eventually all dirty. Not anymore! They are all clean, all blankets are clean and I'm changing sheets once a week.
Now, I'm sure some of you are reading this and going..."okay, lady, isn't this just what you're supposed to do," I mean, I AM a stay at home mom...but let me tell you, when you get behind, just one or two days, it's overwhelming where to start...let alone if it's been weeks or months since you;ve done some of this stuff. Now, I'm not saying I didn't clean my house for months, I'm talking about EVERYTHING being clean all at the same time...and not just when you know you're having company. Then you have to take into consideration a crazy hubby schedule, karate, dance, gymnastics, ballgames, church, Scentsy, birthday parties, shows, blah, blah, blah. I've laughed before and said that I really don't think I have time to have a job. I know, I would make a schedule and it would all work, but I love being with my kiddos and teaching them and being there when I need to be.
With all of that being said, I told you early on that February was a busy month because of all the birthdays, Valentines, etc. Well, that brings up another one of those goals that I need to work on that is starring me in the face tonight...I want to make Landon's Valentine's for his party which is Friday. I already have them picked out, and part of the supplies, but I have to go to Scraptopia (local scrapbooking store) to complete them. Today was the day I should have done that. Hubby was gone with one of his buddies this morning until about noon, then, like I said, sister and I took a nap. Then he went to work between 2 and 3. Tomorrow he will go to work at noon, they don't open until 10...I'm hoping I can get there and get done and back home in time. Maybe I should just MAKE Ella go back to school because of things like that. I also have to prepare Valentines for my little church kiddos, my kiddos, my hubby, grandparents, teachers and secret sister. I also have a Scentsy order I need to place, and a treasurer's report to get done. We also have a realtor coming to see our house on Wednesday afternoon. When am I supposed to do all of that, with Ella in tow? Ugh! Time management is what I'm talking about and I stink at it!
Well, since I'm preaching about time management and how busy I am this week I think I should go to bed since it's almost 1am!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
But here we are...Monday! Monday was a LAZY day for me. Ella and I stayed in my bed watching Nick Jr until about noon, then we took a nap! Today was karate, so after school we came home and just vegged out until time to go. When we got home I fixed a quick and easy dinner and then we played a while before the kiddos' bedtime. My poor hubby is STILL working on paperwork from last week. I'm just hoping the next few days are good to him so he can get caught up.
I don't want to speak too soon, or sound like I'm tootin' my own horn, but I feel like I have come a long way on two of my goals. I feel very close to my husband right now. I feel like I've learned to speak his love language and keep communication open. Felt like it had shut down there for a while...like we were just kind of here, loving each other, but a little distant. I'm doing more for him, and with him, and I feel like we are both happier right now than we've been in several years. The other thing I feel like I've mastered is maintaining my house. For what ever reason I LOVE laundry these days. I love having empty hampers and full drawers. I love the way my house smells while it's all going. And since Ella has been staying home with me she is learning to help with laundry too and she loves it! I am keeping my kitchen clean, which is usually the dirtiest part of my house. My goal every night is to not have any dirty dishes in the sink when I go to bed. This is challenging because you really have to stay on top of switching over the dishwasher, which is always my least favorite thing to do...I don't know why. We have one of those big long bars in our kitchen that is our catch all when we come in from the garage. I have made it my goal to take about 5 minutes everyday to sort through whatever has been tossed up there and put it where it belongs or throw it away. I have been wiping down the table and sweeping the floor every night after supper too. The kids' are doing great with their chore charts and keeping up with things like dirty clothes and toys. Landon, being my little genuis has memorized what is on his chart and makes sure he's done it all by bedtime. Ella is becoming quite a little mommy and she just likes helping me do whatever I'm doing. One thing we are still having to work on is, when taking toys from the living room back to the bedroom, putting them away instead of just dropping them in the doorway. Ella is still not quite old enough to really CLEAN her room, but I'm trying hard to help her realize that all of her toys have spots and she needs to put them back in their spots. I've decided that Landon is responsible for his room unless he has friends over and then I will help him clean it up one day a week. I found some Scrubbing Bubbles flushable disinfecting wipes which are great for quick maintaince on the bathroom counters, and of course, Ella loves them, so we wipe those down and swish the toilets a couple of times a week. I find an easy way for just quickly cleaning the toilet is to keep some kind of cleaner down in the little toilet brush holder thingy, then you can just grab it, swish it and be done! I used to have a real problem keeping sheets clean...I would take them off the bed, put clean ones on and then pile the dirty ones somewhere until they were eventually all dirty. Not anymore! They are all clean, all blankets are clean and I'm changing sheets once a week.
Now, I'm sure some of you are reading this and going..."okay, lady, isn't this just what you're supposed to do," I mean, I AM a stay at home mom...but let me tell you, when you get behind, just one or two days, it's overwhelming where to start...let alone if it's been weeks or months since you;ve done some of this stuff. Now, I'm not saying I didn't clean my house for months, I'm talking about EVERYTHING being clean all at the same time...and not just when you know you're having company. Then you have to take into consideration a crazy hubby schedule, karate, dance, gymnastics, ballgames, church, Scentsy, birthday parties, shows, blah, blah, blah. I've laughed before and said that I really don't think I have time to have a job. I know, I would make a schedule and it would all work, but I love being with my kiddos and teaching them and being there when I need to be.
With all of that being said, I told you early on that February was a busy month because of all the birthdays, Valentines, etc. Well, that brings up another one of those goals that I need to work on that is starring me in the face tonight...I want to make Landon's Valentine's for his party which is Friday. I already have them picked out, and part of the supplies, but I have to go to Scraptopia (local scrapbooking store) to complete them. Today was the day I should have done that. Hubby was gone with one of his buddies this morning until about noon, then, like I said, sister and I took a nap. Then he went to work between 2 and 3. Tomorrow he will go to work at noon, they don't open until 10...I'm hoping I can get there and get done and back home in time. Maybe I should just MAKE Ella go back to school because of things like that. I also have to prepare Valentines for my little church kiddos, my kiddos, my hubby, grandparents, teachers and secret sister. I also have a Scentsy order I need to place, and a treasurer's report to get done. We also have a realtor coming to see our house on Wednesday afternoon. When am I supposed to do all of that, with Ella in tow? Ugh! Time management is what I'm talking about and I stink at it!
Well, since I'm preaching about time management and how busy I am this week I think I should go to bed since it's almost 1am!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Friday, February 8, 2013
Just One Word
It's Friday! Yay! I took a day for myself today! I went and had a 50 minute massage, in hopes it would ease the tension in my neck that I believe is causing my headaches. It was great, and yes, my neck feels better, but as soon as I left the headache was back! Then, I headed to the salon and tanned...I thought, maybe that warm few minutes would relax me a little bit more and help those muscles. Then, I came back to reality and went to the grocery store! Hahaha!
My thoughts today have to do with one word...sometimes I think if we can focus on one word that really really means something to us we can do great things. Today, the word is GLORY. Everything we do is supposed to be for the glory of God. Everything. There's a good song by Steven Curtis Chapman called Do Everything that explains it well. It's really something to think about, everything that we do within our day needs to be for the glory of God. That means in my normal day, taking care of Ella and Landon and cooking supper for my husband, and cleaning the house for my family and cleaning their clothes...should all be for the glory of God. No matter what you do during your day, everything you do can be done for the glory of God. Thinking about glory can help keep your head screwed on right during your day...maybe even keep you in balance throughout the day. One way to help you keep glory on your mind all day is to make your to do list at night before you go to bed, then pray over each item on that list. Ask God to not only help you complete the tasks, but to make sure it's for his glory, for his kingdom. Anything else has no eternal meaning and does not deserve your time or energy. Then, the next day as you work your way down your to do list pray again over each task. When you keep God right there on top of your list your day is sure to be blessed. Now...I'm not saying I'm perfect at doing this, it's hard. It's hard to keep those happy, good thoughts flowing all day, because we all have bad days. It's hard when you're so totally busy you can't even hardly think at all, but take just a few minutes ever now and then and think about these things. I'm going to work much harder on this for my days...I'm hoping it helps me just a little more to keep my energy up and my temper down.
I don't know if you've ever heard of the Fly Lady, if not, check her out..but one thing she says about house work is it's never too late to start...don't try to catch up, just start where you are...God says the same thing. It doesn't matter where you are, how low you've gotten just start there to get back to where you need to be.
That's about all I have for tonight, tomorrow I'm preparing to have my sisters, their kids, their husbands, and my parents all over for the February Birthdays party. I love to host and I can't wait!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
My thoughts today have to do with one word...sometimes I think if we can focus on one word that really really means something to us we can do great things. Today, the word is GLORY. Everything we do is supposed to be for the glory of God. Everything. There's a good song by Steven Curtis Chapman called Do Everything that explains it well. It's really something to think about, everything that we do within our day needs to be for the glory of God. That means in my normal day, taking care of Ella and Landon and cooking supper for my husband, and cleaning the house for my family and cleaning their clothes...should all be for the glory of God. No matter what you do during your day, everything you do can be done for the glory of God. Thinking about glory can help keep your head screwed on right during your day...maybe even keep you in balance throughout the day. One way to help you keep glory on your mind all day is to make your to do list at night before you go to bed, then pray over each item on that list. Ask God to not only help you complete the tasks, but to make sure it's for his glory, for his kingdom. Anything else has no eternal meaning and does not deserve your time or energy. Then, the next day as you work your way down your to do list pray again over each task. When you keep God right there on top of your list your day is sure to be blessed. Now...I'm not saying I'm perfect at doing this, it's hard. It's hard to keep those happy, good thoughts flowing all day, because we all have bad days. It's hard when you're so totally busy you can't even hardly think at all, but take just a few minutes ever now and then and think about these things. I'm going to work much harder on this for my days...I'm hoping it helps me just a little more to keep my energy up and my temper down.
I don't know if you've ever heard of the Fly Lady, if not, check her out..but one thing she says about house work is it's never too late to start...don't try to catch up, just start where you are...God says the same thing. It doesn't matter where you are, how low you've gotten just start there to get back to where you need to be.
That's about all I have for tonight, tomorrow I'm preparing to have my sisters, their kids, their husbands, and my parents all over for the February Birthdays party. I love to host and I can't wait!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Hard Day at Work?
I HATE when my hubby gets called into work...like middle of the night kinda stuff. But when it's to work a wreck on someone you know it really stinks. He already had several wrecks this week that required lots of paperwork, and this one today was a doozy. We're praying for their family.
Today was weird. Seems like it went by really fast. After we dropped Landon off, sister and I came home and washed those dishes we left in the sink last night. We folded the clothes that were in the dryer and did another couple of loads and then it was naptime, and yes...I napped! We also took time this afternoon to call and have a single rose and birthday balloon sent to our sweet Ashlyn...she's now a big 12 year old! We had to pick bubba up a little early from school today for a dentist appointment. It was supposed to be sister's first day of gymnastics, but it took so long at the dentist we didn't get to go.
When we got home I of course had one of my killer headaches...they show up at about 3pm everyday. I don't understand! Anyway, we had friends stop by and then more friends bring food. It was a good evening to end a really bad week of work for my hubby...today was his Friday. No day is just particularly great in the life of a State Trooper, but today was extremely stressful and IT was just icing on the cake. I love my husband and I'm so very proud of him. I'm proud to be a Trooper's Wife!
Today, there's been alot on my mind...no neccessarily just a whole lot I should put in my blog at this time, I know you will understand. I hate that this makes two nights in a row there hasn't been any deep thoughts put into this blog, but my brain is about ready to shut down.
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Today was weird. Seems like it went by really fast. After we dropped Landon off, sister and I came home and washed those dishes we left in the sink last night. We folded the clothes that were in the dryer and did another couple of loads and then it was naptime, and yes...I napped! We also took time this afternoon to call and have a single rose and birthday balloon sent to our sweet Ashlyn...she's now a big 12 year old! We had to pick bubba up a little early from school today for a dentist appointment. It was supposed to be sister's first day of gymnastics, but it took so long at the dentist we didn't get to go.
When we got home I of course had one of my killer headaches...they show up at about 3pm everyday. I don't understand! Anyway, we had friends stop by and then more friends bring food. It was a good evening to end a really bad week of work for my hubby...today was his Friday. No day is just particularly great in the life of a State Trooper, but today was extremely stressful and IT was just icing on the cake. I love my husband and I'm so very proud of him. I'm proud to be a Trooper's Wife!
Today, there's been alot on my mind...no neccessarily just a whole lot I should put in my blog at this time, I know you will understand. I hate that this makes two nights in a row there hasn't been any deep thoughts put into this blog, but my brain is about ready to shut down.
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Seasonal Depression
This foggy dreary weather is so depressing! Ugh. I certainly suffered today because of it. I wanted to stay in bed and ended up being late dropping Landon off. I took Ella in to see the doctor because of the pain she was having last night with her ear. She does have an ear infection and sinus drainage.
The pharmacies in ths town leave something to be desired and so does the insurance we have. See...see what I mean...I blame the weather for my negative attitude!
I also have a horrible migraine so I think I will crawl in bed and start over tomorrow. There are dishes in the sink, but maybe I'll feel better in the morning.
So sorry for the short post, but I didn't want to skip a day!
Terra
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
It wasn't built in a day...
I had to post last night's post tonight because my internet was not working properly last night.
Today was pretty uneventful. We didn't have water for a long time because of some leak out this way and then the electricity went out for a bit. Crazy!
The kids and I ran errands, grabbed a snack, picked up an extra kid, and came home. They played for several hours and we all ate dinner that Alan brought home.
I don't really have a lot of deep thoughts for tonight. I'm worried about my Ella. Earlier tonight she was playing...having a good time, and then all of a sudden she was screaming in pain and holding her ear. I called the doctor and he recommended ibuprophen and tussinex. She was fine when she went to bed, but you know how sickness always gets worse in the night.
One other thing on my mind...Alan is getting ready to attend a 2 week size and weight school. Size and weight is the division of the highway patrol that you see driving the suv pulling over big trucks. He has been on the road for 12 years and he thinks he's ready for a change. Once he finishes this school there's no guarantee that they will open up a position in any particular place at any particular time, but it sure would be nice. It would be a raise in pay, a normal schedule, and more independence. It would be a little sad for him to not be on the road anymore, but I look at it as a new chapter in our life. It could be bring about some great things.
We also heard about another place that may be coming up for sale....I think we have about 3 still in the possibilities list. I really want a place we can build on. We did the whole remodel thing with this house and I don't ever want to do that again!
One thing that the two things above have in common is they both make me very impatient. I have a problem with, once we're talking about something, I want to see it happen...I want instant gratification, I want to see results. This is something I'm working on, and I know I'm better than I used to be, but just thinking about what things could be like makes me anxious.
I know, however, that life is great here in the present and we do have a hopeful future and that's all that matters.
My little princess is calling for me...please pray we get some rest tonight and can get into the doctor tomorrow.
Today was pretty uneventful. We didn't have water for a long time because of some leak out this way and then the electricity went out for a bit. Crazy!
The kids and I ran errands, grabbed a snack, picked up an extra kid, and came home. They played for several hours and we all ate dinner that Alan brought home.
I don't really have a lot of deep thoughts for tonight. I'm worried about my Ella. Earlier tonight she was playing...having a good time, and then all of a sudden she was screaming in pain and holding her ear. I called the doctor and he recommended ibuprophen and tussinex. She was fine when she went to bed, but you know how sickness always gets worse in the night.
One other thing on my mind...Alan is getting ready to attend a 2 week size and weight school. Size and weight is the division of the highway patrol that you see driving the suv pulling over big trucks. He has been on the road for 12 years and he thinks he's ready for a change. Once he finishes this school there's no guarantee that they will open up a position in any particular place at any particular time, but it sure would be nice. It would be a raise in pay, a normal schedule, and more independence. It would be a little sad for him to not be on the road anymore, but I look at it as a new chapter in our life. It could be bring about some great things.
We also heard about another place that may be coming up for sale....I think we have about 3 still in the possibilities list. I really want a place we can build on. We did the whole remodel thing with this house and I don't ever want to do that again!
One thing that the two things above have in common is they both make me very impatient. I have a problem with, once we're talking about something, I want to see it happen...I want instant gratification, I want to see results. This is something I'm working on, and I know I'm better than I used to be, but just thinking about what things could be like makes me anxious.
I know, however, that life is great here in the present and we do have a hopeful future and that's all that matters.
My little princess is calling for me...please pray we get some rest tonight and can get into the doctor tomorrow.
Communication
Oh my! My sinuses are EVIL! I thought I was better over the weekend and I took my last antibiotic on Sunday, but this morning I woke up and all of that pressure and pain had shifted over to the other side! Pain in my eye, my teeth, my jaw, my nose, and one killer headache! If you're suffering from sinus pain, let me say, Musinex D is a miracle drug! It kept me going through the day even though I felt like going back to bed and covering up my head!
Although I did alot of sitting in my chair today, I did manage to do one load of laundry, change the sheets on my bed, pay bills, pick Landon up from school, take him to karate, go to the grocery store, and cook supper! Then, to my surprise my darling children worked together and helped me pick up the toys from today, clean up the kitchen and get everything ready for school tomorrow. Bedtime was somewhat easy too. Ella fell asleep quicker than she has in a while and Landon fell asleep on the couch! I know that my prayers for help and strength is what is getting me through. The power of prayer is amazing and God hears you even when you're simply asking for help cleaning your house!
I got really chatty this evening and had two good, long phone conversations with my two best friends. I don't do that often enough. I don't know about you, but with texts, email, and social media, I don't think we TALK enough anymore. That's true conversation...true communication. It's hard to really express your feelings through typing messages. I like having those special girls I can talk to about anything!
One of my conversations tonight was about being a step-parent. Let me be the first to tell you, that was an extremely hard transition for me to make. I thought I had it all figured out when we were dating, but it was way different when we got married. It was hard for me to find my place...to figure out if I was a mother figure, a friend figure, or kind of like an aunt. I didn't always agree with the way her mother parented and that was hard. Now that I have children I regret alot of things I did when we first got married. Then I went through a really rough patch when I couldn't stop thinking about my husband being married to HER. She is so completely different than me and at the time I really didn't like her. Not for any particular reason, just because. It was so weird for me. I asked him questions I didn't need to know the answers to. I imagined things I never needed to think about. All of that made me resent her for things she had no control over. I was mean to her. I did things out of spite. I was in a really bad place. Over time, and some maturing, I have realized many things that brought me out of that terrible spot and I'm so thankful now for the relationship I am able to have with my step-daughter's mother. The best explantion is this: Alan married young, they grew up, they grew apart. They were not happy. He was not speaking her love language and she did what she had to do to make herself happy. It was also hard for a while because we have joint custody because of Alan's schedule. That means we had her every day that Alan was ever off. To me, that was not fair to Landon. There was no one on one time with him. He was just a baby. I felt like as a girl, she needed to be settled, have a HOME and I felt like it should be with her mother. After Ella was born Alan decided we needed to change the way things were done. Of course Ashlyn is getting older and that makes a difference too, but our relationship with the ex is so great that we are able to get her whenever we need her, for special events and holidays and then every other weekend (Alan's weekends). If that doesn't work for someone, it's fine, we move on. No fussing, no fighting...Ash pretty much comes and goes back and forth as she pleases. Everyone is much happier. Ashlyn is even much healthier because of it. The way she was swished around back and forth before made her a very uncomfortable child. It was hard. She's so much better adjusted and we all get along so much better. She's even getting to where she is like a caregiver for the little kids, where as before she acted like they had cooties! She is such a good kid. She makes good grades, she's never in trouble, she's talented and smart. She is so extremely sweet... but she is growing up way too fast!!!
Well, there's my deep thoughts for tonight. Guess I better go to bed. Miss Ella and I will probably run a few errands tomorrow, unless I wake up feeling like I did this morning!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Although I did alot of sitting in my chair today, I did manage to do one load of laundry, change the sheets on my bed, pay bills, pick Landon up from school, take him to karate, go to the grocery store, and cook supper! Then, to my surprise my darling children worked together and helped me pick up the toys from today, clean up the kitchen and get everything ready for school tomorrow. Bedtime was somewhat easy too. Ella fell asleep quicker than she has in a while and Landon fell asleep on the couch! I know that my prayers for help and strength is what is getting me through. The power of prayer is amazing and God hears you even when you're simply asking for help cleaning your house!
I got really chatty this evening and had two good, long phone conversations with my two best friends. I don't do that often enough. I don't know about you, but with texts, email, and social media, I don't think we TALK enough anymore. That's true conversation...true communication. It's hard to really express your feelings through typing messages. I like having those special girls I can talk to about anything!
One of my conversations tonight was about being a step-parent. Let me be the first to tell you, that was an extremely hard transition for me to make. I thought I had it all figured out when we were dating, but it was way different when we got married. It was hard for me to find my place...to figure out if I was a mother figure, a friend figure, or kind of like an aunt. I didn't always agree with the way her mother parented and that was hard. Now that I have children I regret alot of things I did when we first got married. Then I went through a really rough patch when I couldn't stop thinking about my husband being married to HER. She is so completely different than me and at the time I really didn't like her. Not for any particular reason, just because. It was so weird for me. I asked him questions I didn't need to know the answers to. I imagined things I never needed to think about. All of that made me resent her for things she had no control over. I was mean to her. I did things out of spite. I was in a really bad place. Over time, and some maturing, I have realized many things that brought me out of that terrible spot and I'm so thankful now for the relationship I am able to have with my step-daughter's mother. The best explantion is this: Alan married young, they grew up, they grew apart. They were not happy. He was not speaking her love language and she did what she had to do to make herself happy. It was also hard for a while because we have joint custody because of Alan's schedule. That means we had her every day that Alan was ever off. To me, that was not fair to Landon. There was no one on one time with him. He was just a baby. I felt like as a girl, she needed to be settled, have a HOME and I felt like it should be with her mother. After Ella was born Alan decided we needed to change the way things were done. Of course Ashlyn is getting older and that makes a difference too, but our relationship with the ex is so great that we are able to get her whenever we need her, for special events and holidays and then every other weekend (Alan's weekends). If that doesn't work for someone, it's fine, we move on. No fussing, no fighting...Ash pretty much comes and goes back and forth as she pleases. Everyone is much happier. Ashlyn is even much healthier because of it. The way she was swished around back and forth before made her a very uncomfortable child. It was hard. She's so much better adjusted and we all get along so much better. She's even getting to where she is like a caregiver for the little kids, where as before she acted like they had cooties! She is such a good kid. She makes good grades, she's never in trouble, she's talented and smart. She is so extremely sweet... but she is growing up way too fast!!!
Well, there's my deep thoughts for tonight. Guess I better go to bed. Miss Ella and I will probably run a few errands tomorrow, unless I wake up feeling like I did this morning!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Questions
Today was a beautiful day!!! I love days like today and it's so weird that we're getting so many like this in winter! But, like my mood here lately...I will take it!!!
Today, Sunday, of course, we were in church. I absolutely love our praise and worship band. I have always loved music, but there is just so much emotion and feeling that come out when singing praises to our Heavenly Father. I love that I can look down at Landon (I've decided to just go ahead and use names) and see him singing the songs too! I believe that child is going to have a musical talent...but that's another story.
Alan leaned over to me to today and said something very thought provoking today. He said, "There's no telling where we would be now if it wasn't for this little church." Oh my goodness. I remember like it was yesterday the day we decided to find a church home.
I grew up in church. My mother and I attended Sunday mornings, I went to AWANAS, I went to youth group...I loved church...I was saved at an early age. However, when I started college I slowly slipped away from those roots. I, like many college kids had my "wild and crazy days." Thank God I never found myself in a sever car wreck, bar fight, or jail...even though I forgot about God, he never forgot about me! That is a testimony to his unending love and grace for us! Anyway, Alan and I had been married a little over a year, and Landon was not quite a year old, and whether it was hormones, or just God shouting at me, I was a very unhappy person. I was angry, I was bitter, I spoke my mind, and picked alot of fights. My sweet husband wanted the old me back. I saw my doctor, got back on my anti-depressants, but nothing really seemed to change. One of our neighbors continuously asked Alan for us to join him at his church. A friend of mine, who, at the time attended the same church, was also urging me to come with her. Finally, one morning as I stood in the bathroom having a breakdown, Alan just held me and said, "Maybe we should get back in church. Do you think you would find your happiness there?" It hit me like a ton a bricks. Part of me wanted to say, "How dare you...don't judge me..." but a bigger part of me said, "YESSSSSS!"
So, the very next Sunday we visited Legacy Church. Immediately, we felt at home. Everyone was so welcoming...there were even people there we already knew...had known for years...how had I been so long without that companionship and fellowship? Life almost instantly changed. I don't know when, or how, but bam...I was happy. Thank God! For the sake of my marriage, for the sake of my children, thank God! So...like he said, who knows where we would be if it weren't for that little church!
A friend of mine and I were talking one day about questions like that..."what might have been..." That can sometimes cause some problems inside your head if you dwell too much on it. I am just so happy that I know, without a doubt that I married an honest, hardworking, God loving, faithful husband and that we are exactly where we are because of God's love and grace. We have three healthy, beautiful children, even though they try our patience, we have a roof over our head, even though we are constantly looking for another, we have food on the table, even though sometimes it's only scrambled egg sandwiches, we have vehicles to drive, even though there's chocolate milk stains on the roof, and we love each other with all of our hearts.
Today after church we attended a benefit lunch for an elderly man Alan grew up knowing. As we pulled up to the little gym it was being held at we were overwhelmed by the amount of cars in the parking lot. We stepped inside and wow! So many people were there, eating, visiting, and smiling. It was wonderful. There was a ton of food and lots of items being auctioned off, all to benefit this man who had obviously impacted all of these people in one way or another. How special is that?!?! Events like that will spark another question in your mind that I think we shouldn't dwell on...what would it be like if it were me. And, once again, maybe I'm the only morbid one who thinks like this, but probably not. We've probably all been to a funeral where there was standing room only and so many people stood up to have so many nice things to say about the deceased and thought to ourselves, "What if it was me? How many people would come to my funeral? What would they say about me?" I decided back in the sixth grade when my aunt was killed in Murrah Bombing that I wanted to leave a legacy like her's. So many times I heard, "She was friends with everyone...she was always smiling." Well...that's hard to do! Then, another funeral, I had the thought again, because they talked about how great the woman was at raising her children in the Word. I'm trying! Anyway, today I thought to myself, what would people do if it were me? What if I was sick and had costly medical bills? Would they turn their head and say oh well, or would they pull together, put something like that together and all gather in honor of me, trying to help out?
Now, I'm not saying I want to be nice to people and fake a smile to make people like me so that lots of people will come to my funeral or help pay my medical bills. I'm just saying, I hope and pray that I'm that kind of person...the kind of person people love and actually have great memories of. I want to strive for postive-ness, in my life, my marriage, my home, and my children.
Wow...I had some deep thoughts again tonight. I think it's time for me to rest my brain...tomorrow's MONDAY!!! I can't wait to see what it brings...bill paying for one I know...yuck!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Today, Sunday, of course, we were in church. I absolutely love our praise and worship band. I have always loved music, but there is just so much emotion and feeling that come out when singing praises to our Heavenly Father. I love that I can look down at Landon (I've decided to just go ahead and use names) and see him singing the songs too! I believe that child is going to have a musical talent...but that's another story.
Alan leaned over to me to today and said something very thought provoking today. He said, "There's no telling where we would be now if it wasn't for this little church." Oh my goodness. I remember like it was yesterday the day we decided to find a church home.
I grew up in church. My mother and I attended Sunday mornings, I went to AWANAS, I went to youth group...I loved church...I was saved at an early age. However, when I started college I slowly slipped away from those roots. I, like many college kids had my "wild and crazy days." Thank God I never found myself in a sever car wreck, bar fight, or jail...even though I forgot about God, he never forgot about me! That is a testimony to his unending love and grace for us! Anyway, Alan and I had been married a little over a year, and Landon was not quite a year old, and whether it was hormones, or just God shouting at me, I was a very unhappy person. I was angry, I was bitter, I spoke my mind, and picked alot of fights. My sweet husband wanted the old me back. I saw my doctor, got back on my anti-depressants, but nothing really seemed to change. One of our neighbors continuously asked Alan for us to join him at his church. A friend of mine, who, at the time attended the same church, was also urging me to come with her. Finally, one morning as I stood in the bathroom having a breakdown, Alan just held me and said, "Maybe we should get back in church. Do you think you would find your happiness there?" It hit me like a ton a bricks. Part of me wanted to say, "How dare you...don't judge me..." but a bigger part of me said, "YESSSSSS!"
So, the very next Sunday we visited Legacy Church. Immediately, we felt at home. Everyone was so welcoming...there were even people there we already knew...had known for years...how had I been so long without that companionship and fellowship? Life almost instantly changed. I don't know when, or how, but bam...I was happy. Thank God! For the sake of my marriage, for the sake of my children, thank God! So...like he said, who knows where we would be if it weren't for that little church!
A friend of mine and I were talking one day about questions like that..."what might have been..." That can sometimes cause some problems inside your head if you dwell too much on it. I am just so happy that I know, without a doubt that I married an honest, hardworking, God loving, faithful husband and that we are exactly where we are because of God's love and grace. We have three healthy, beautiful children, even though they try our patience, we have a roof over our head, even though we are constantly looking for another, we have food on the table, even though sometimes it's only scrambled egg sandwiches, we have vehicles to drive, even though there's chocolate milk stains on the roof, and we love each other with all of our hearts.
Today after church we attended a benefit lunch for an elderly man Alan grew up knowing. As we pulled up to the little gym it was being held at we were overwhelmed by the amount of cars in the parking lot. We stepped inside and wow! So many people were there, eating, visiting, and smiling. It was wonderful. There was a ton of food and lots of items being auctioned off, all to benefit this man who had obviously impacted all of these people in one way or another. How special is that?!?! Events like that will spark another question in your mind that I think we shouldn't dwell on...what would it be like if it were me. And, once again, maybe I'm the only morbid one who thinks like this, but probably not. We've probably all been to a funeral where there was standing room only and so many people stood up to have so many nice things to say about the deceased and thought to ourselves, "What if it was me? How many people would come to my funeral? What would they say about me?" I decided back in the sixth grade when my aunt was killed in Murrah Bombing that I wanted to leave a legacy like her's. So many times I heard, "She was friends with everyone...she was always smiling." Well...that's hard to do! Then, another funeral, I had the thought again, because they talked about how great the woman was at raising her children in the Word. I'm trying! Anyway, today I thought to myself, what would people do if it were me? What if I was sick and had costly medical bills? Would they turn their head and say oh well, or would they pull together, put something like that together and all gather in honor of me, trying to help out?
Now, I'm not saying I want to be nice to people and fake a smile to make people like me so that lots of people will come to my funeral or help pay my medical bills. I'm just saying, I hope and pray that I'm that kind of person...the kind of person people love and actually have great memories of. I want to strive for postive-ness, in my life, my marriage, my home, and my children.
Wow...I had some deep thoughts again tonight. I think it's time for me to rest my brain...tomorrow's MONDAY!!! I can't wait to see what it brings...bill paying for one I know...yuck!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Being an Adult
I'm better! So much better! I was so frustrated because when I went to bed last night I could not quit coughing, which I really hadn't been doing before, so I was aftaid I was getting sicker...I had already taken enough meds to make it to where I couldn't take anything else, so I didn't know what I was going to do. Finally I thought about Miss E having pneumonia just about a month ago and all of that stuff they give you to go with the neubulizer sitting up in the cabinet...so I made my way into the kitchen and also found vapor rub...I lathered my chest, throat and nose up and then gave myself a breathing treatment! I felt kind of funny, but I rested peacefully and woke up almost symptom free!!!
Today was Ash's last basketball game of the season so hubby attended that. The little ones and I stayed home since it was at 9:30am and...well...I'm lazy! LOL! No...really I was up around 9:00, but we had to get ready to go shop and head to the birthday party at 1:00.
The little boy who's party we were going to seems to be a pretty good friend of LJ's and he knew immediately he wanted to get him a basketball or something Thunder. We headed to Hibbett's to avoid Wal-Mart. So...we're looking at all these different kinds of b-balls and I hear this lady on her phone say, "Well, would Jax like a basketball...blah...blah...blah...yeah...I'll get him a basketball." So I'm like shoot! That's the same party...so I politely walk over and explain that I overheard her conversation and that my little boy was wanting to get Jax a basketball. She looks at me with no emotion and says, "Yeah...sorry...that's what we're getting him." Now, she's standing looking at North Face jackets and we are standing in front of the basketballs. Grrrr...a few years ago...before kids I probably would have flown off the handle and really let her have it about how rude she was being and by golly I was getting the ball. Just about that time LJ spots a (really nice) indoor basketball goal...I mean...like NICE...so I say..."Okay bub, we'll get that." I spent about twice as much as I would have originally, but it was a great gift and it WAS last minute and all. Not to be hateful or anything...lol...but little Jax wanted to open up OUR gift right then and play with it! Score!
Being at the party I felt like an insecure junior high girl. I don't know if it's because I've been out of school (college) 9 years and out of the work world for 6 years, but I think I'm becoming socially akward. Like, all of these girls (women) who are parents of kids in LJ's class, who I see on a somewhat regular basis, are all visiting with each other, and making friends, and I feel like I'm hanging out with my E...LJ ditched us as soon as we got there. Now, the mama of birthday boy and I have know each other for years, her sister too, so I felt comfortable around them, but it just really made me think about myself. And you know...in today's society you really don't have to have very good social skills. We are friends with people we never see and barely know anything about on facebook and feel like we talk to them, look at pictures of their kids send them smiley faces and give them our opinions just whenever, but if we saw them at Wal-Mart we would probably just shoot them an uncomfortable glance. Am I the only one who feels this way? I don't know...anyway, I warmed up towards the end of the party, but it just really made me think. I have my little group that I feel comfortable with and know I always fit in with them, but why do we have to fit in? Is adult life and high school life really that similar? Ugh...deep thoughts. LOL!
Well, it's beyond midnight and we've only been home about an hour from being out of town with a family friend helping him get some WILD cows to the sale barn and Miss E is STILL awake...getting ready for church in the morning should be a blast!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Today was Ash's last basketball game of the season so hubby attended that. The little ones and I stayed home since it was at 9:30am and...well...I'm lazy! LOL! No...really I was up around 9:00, but we had to get ready to go shop and head to the birthday party at 1:00.
The little boy who's party we were going to seems to be a pretty good friend of LJ's and he knew immediately he wanted to get him a basketball or something Thunder. We headed to Hibbett's to avoid Wal-Mart. So...we're looking at all these different kinds of b-balls and I hear this lady on her phone say, "Well, would Jax like a basketball...blah...blah...blah...yeah...I'll get him a basketball." So I'm like shoot! That's the same party...so I politely walk over and explain that I overheard her conversation and that my little boy was wanting to get Jax a basketball. She looks at me with no emotion and says, "Yeah...sorry...that's what we're getting him." Now, she's standing looking at North Face jackets and we are standing in front of the basketballs. Grrrr...a few years ago...before kids I probably would have flown off the handle and really let her have it about how rude she was being and by golly I was getting the ball. Just about that time LJ spots a (really nice) indoor basketball goal...I mean...like NICE...so I say..."Okay bub, we'll get that." I spent about twice as much as I would have originally, but it was a great gift and it WAS last minute and all. Not to be hateful or anything...lol...but little Jax wanted to open up OUR gift right then and play with it! Score!
Being at the party I felt like an insecure junior high girl. I don't know if it's because I've been out of school (college) 9 years and out of the work world for 6 years, but I think I'm becoming socially akward. Like, all of these girls (women) who are parents of kids in LJ's class, who I see on a somewhat regular basis, are all visiting with each other, and making friends, and I feel like I'm hanging out with my E...LJ ditched us as soon as we got there. Now, the mama of birthday boy and I have know each other for years, her sister too, so I felt comfortable around them, but it just really made me think about myself. And you know...in today's society you really don't have to have very good social skills. We are friends with people we never see and barely know anything about on facebook and feel like we talk to them, look at pictures of their kids send them smiley faces and give them our opinions just whenever, but if we saw them at Wal-Mart we would probably just shoot them an uncomfortable glance. Am I the only one who feels this way? I don't know...anyway, I warmed up towards the end of the party, but it just really made me think. I have my little group that I feel comfortable with and know I always fit in with them, but why do we have to fit in? Is adult life and high school life really that similar? Ugh...deep thoughts. LOL!
Well, it's beyond midnight and we've only been home about an hour from being out of town with a family friend helping him get some WILD cows to the sale barn and Miss E is STILL awake...getting ready for church in the morning should be a blast!
Until tomorrow...
Terra
Friday, February 1, 2013
On The Mend...I Think
Today was another day of rest for me. I slept until about 11am! Hubby cooked "brunch" and then took little sister to get feed (livestock), and pick up brother. I took a shower, did a few loads of laundry and changed the sheets, then I went back to bed because all of that made me feel like I had just ran a marathon. I was really wanting to mop my kitchen because it had little spots on it, so after my nap I did floors and rugs...once again, that WORE ME OUT.
I'm so ready for this feeling to go away. I hate when you have a cold, first you are sick from the cold, then it's like you're sick from the cold medicine...my head is in a fog, my heartrate is elevated, and I still can't breathe through my nose.
We have a birthday party to attend tomorrow and I need to feel better...we haven't even gotten a gift yet since I've been sickly.
Being sick is also depressing. I don't like being holed up in my bedroom while hubby takes care of the kids. I don't feel like putting on real clothes or make up or fixing my hair. One good thing about being in bed so much is I've been reading. My mom got me a book the other day that takes a Christian look at how your relationship with your mother affects your entire life. It's pretty good so far!
It's been a nice little "veg out" kind of night around here. The kids are being good, getting along, and playing games. We're all just hanging out and I love it...nothing to stress us, nowhere we have to be, just spending time together.
Well...guess I'll hop off here and take my night time meds and hope that I'm even better tomorrow.
I'm so ready for this feeling to go away. I hate when you have a cold, first you are sick from the cold, then it's like you're sick from the cold medicine...my head is in a fog, my heartrate is elevated, and I still can't breathe through my nose.
We have a birthday party to attend tomorrow and I need to feel better...we haven't even gotten a gift yet since I've been sickly.
Being sick is also depressing. I don't like being holed up in my bedroom while hubby takes care of the kids. I don't feel like putting on real clothes or make up or fixing my hair. One good thing about being in bed so much is I've been reading. My mom got me a book the other day that takes a Christian look at how your relationship with your mother affects your entire life. It's pretty good so far!
It's been a nice little "veg out" kind of night around here. The kids are being good, getting along, and playing games. We're all just hanging out and I love it...nothing to stress us, nowhere we have to be, just spending time together.
Well...guess I'll hop off here and take my night time meds and hope that I'm even better tomorrow.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
What a day...
So, I woke up this morning sicker than I was yesterday. I help get LJ ready for school and then hubby had a dentist appointment and Miss E decided to wake up early, so I called for reinforcement...my mom came and played with her until hubby could get home so I could get some rest. When he got home he brought lunch and we all sat down and ate. Then I got Miss E ready to go town with daddy to pick up my prescription the doctor so kindly called in for me, get new tires on his truck, pick up sweet LJ from school, and go watch Ash play ball.
I was settling down to take another long nap when our niece texted me that she was coming by to pick up some Scentsy light bulbs. Now...I'm looking pretty rough, so I tell her they will be on the porch and I will be in bed. I'm laying in bed scrolling through facebook when I hear a car door. Automatically I assume it's her and she'll be on her way soon. Well...I never hear her get back into her car...I didn't think much of it. Then I got up to go get some paperwork and the laptop because I knew I needed to place an order today and I thought bed was the best place to do it. I'm wandering all around the living room, kitchen, office, and even out to my car in the garage, not noticing the car sitting in my driveway. On my way back to the bedroom it catches my eye...it's not her car...so I sneak into Miss E's room to get a better peak without being seen. It's a little Kia SUV with the window down a bit, but I couldn't see anyone...so I (being somewhat medicated) still think nothing of it. I assumed she had met a friend here to go to town together with or something like that. I come back to bed. Just a few minutes later she sends me a text asking who the man was in my yard. What?!?! So I sneak back to a hidden window and look out. She's standing there talking to this weirdo in sweat pants, driving a kia. He flashes her an odd shaped badge and tells her he is doing an investigation and needs to talk to...and then points at hubby's patrol car. She tells him he's not home, so he tells her he's just going to wait. Well...she decides it's just too fishy. I tell her I have no idea who he is or what it could be about and to either get in her car and leave as fast as she can, or sneak around to the backyard and I would let her in. I called hubby and he was sitting at the tire place with all four tires and wheels off...so he calls headquarters and they send deputies and troopers my way. By this time and his tone of voice I'm scared to death. He tells me (in a tone I've never heard from my hubby) to get the gun, get it ready and get our niece in the house. "Shoot him if he tries to come in." Oh my...I just don't feel good today, and I really wasn't wanting to have to shoot anyone honey...I'd be looking all crazy on the news and stuff! LOL! Anyway, it wasn't funny at the time. So, hubby also called a neighbor...a big neighbor, and he shows up in his "beast" (that's what he calls it)...it's about a 1990 model suburban (slick) with monster tires on it and a very loud engine. Hahaha...that will scare him I think. Then two deputies, and a patrol car pull in with their lights on...wonder what he thought then...anyway. He tells them he's a private investigator looking into some guys workers' comp case that is going to court in 6 weeks and he's trying to prove it fraudulent. REALLY?!?!? What a freak! Hubby wouldn't have known anything about the guy...all we know is he lives down the road and had back surgery. Dude, you do NOT pull up into a law enforcement officer's drive way in your kia, wearing your sweats, flash a badge at somebody and expect to be taken serious. Good way to get dead!
Later, hubby saw said kia and two deputies pull into a local gas station, so dear hubby pulls in as well and proceeds to tell said moron what a stupid idea that was and...well...basically not to ever do it again.
Whew! It really scared me and made me think. You just never know about people. Which brings up another point I haven't talked about yet in this blog. We want to move. See...where we live is very close to a road...real close...like I don't let my children play in the front yard close. It's a county road, but it is still highly traveled and more than once have suspicious people stopped here just because they see the patrol car. We even had a drunk lady drive through our fence once. Hubby doesn't want me or our children to be victim to some crazy who has it out for cops. When we moved here 5 years ago we said we would only stay a few years and then sell. Well...yeah...we're still here. Then when LJ started school it was really hard on me because we do not live in the school district I want my children to go to school at and there is a waiting list for transfers that is just not getting smaller. So he started at another school that we love, but just don't want him there forever. So, we've been looking for, ideally, land where we can build, but we've also looked at a few houses in the area. Everytime one comes up it seems like that's the one, but then something always happens. I have high hopes and just keep praying, but days like today really try my patience...even hubby said, "See, this is why I'm so ready to move!"
Anyway, I got my prescription and some really good cold and sinus meds and I'm headed to bed. Praying that tomorrow will be a better day...if I'm down much longer all of my hard work will be in vain, hubby just can't keep up! LOL! I did get in a couple loads of laundry, cleaned up the supper dishes (thank you hubby) and picked up the kids toys before they went to bed, so it hasn't all fallen apart yet.
Until tomorrow,...
Terra
I was settling down to take another long nap when our niece texted me that she was coming by to pick up some Scentsy light bulbs. Now...I'm looking pretty rough, so I tell her they will be on the porch and I will be in bed. I'm laying in bed scrolling through facebook when I hear a car door. Automatically I assume it's her and she'll be on her way soon. Well...I never hear her get back into her car...I didn't think much of it. Then I got up to go get some paperwork and the laptop because I knew I needed to place an order today and I thought bed was the best place to do it. I'm wandering all around the living room, kitchen, office, and even out to my car in the garage, not noticing the car sitting in my driveway. On my way back to the bedroom it catches my eye...it's not her car...so I sneak into Miss E's room to get a better peak without being seen. It's a little Kia SUV with the window down a bit, but I couldn't see anyone...so I (being somewhat medicated) still think nothing of it. I assumed she had met a friend here to go to town together with or something like that. I come back to bed. Just a few minutes later she sends me a text asking who the man was in my yard. What?!?! So I sneak back to a hidden window and look out. She's standing there talking to this weirdo in sweat pants, driving a kia. He flashes her an odd shaped badge and tells her he is doing an investigation and needs to talk to...and then points at hubby's patrol car. She tells him he's not home, so he tells her he's just going to wait. Well...she decides it's just too fishy. I tell her I have no idea who he is or what it could be about and to either get in her car and leave as fast as she can, or sneak around to the backyard and I would let her in. I called hubby and he was sitting at the tire place with all four tires and wheels off...so he calls headquarters and they send deputies and troopers my way. By this time and his tone of voice I'm scared to death. He tells me (in a tone I've never heard from my hubby) to get the gun, get it ready and get our niece in the house. "Shoot him if he tries to come in." Oh my...I just don't feel good today, and I really wasn't wanting to have to shoot anyone honey...I'd be looking all crazy on the news and stuff! LOL! Anyway, it wasn't funny at the time. So, hubby also called a neighbor...a big neighbor, and he shows up in his "beast" (that's what he calls it)...it's about a 1990 model suburban (slick) with monster tires on it and a very loud engine. Hahaha...that will scare him I think. Then two deputies, and a patrol car pull in with their lights on...wonder what he thought then...anyway. He tells them he's a private investigator looking into some guys workers' comp case that is going to court in 6 weeks and he's trying to prove it fraudulent. REALLY?!?!? What a freak! Hubby wouldn't have known anything about the guy...all we know is he lives down the road and had back surgery. Dude, you do NOT pull up into a law enforcement officer's drive way in your kia, wearing your sweats, flash a badge at somebody and expect to be taken serious. Good way to get dead!
Later, hubby saw said kia and two deputies pull into a local gas station, so dear hubby pulls in as well and proceeds to tell said moron what a stupid idea that was and...well...basically not to ever do it again.
Whew! It really scared me and made me think. You just never know about people. Which brings up another point I haven't talked about yet in this blog. We want to move. See...where we live is very close to a road...real close...like I don't let my children play in the front yard close. It's a county road, but it is still highly traveled and more than once have suspicious people stopped here just because they see the patrol car. We even had a drunk lady drive through our fence once. Hubby doesn't want me or our children to be victim to some crazy who has it out for cops. When we moved here 5 years ago we said we would only stay a few years and then sell. Well...yeah...we're still here. Then when LJ started school it was really hard on me because we do not live in the school district I want my children to go to school at and there is a waiting list for transfers that is just not getting smaller. So he started at another school that we love, but just don't want him there forever. So, we've been looking for, ideally, land where we can build, but we've also looked at a few houses in the area. Everytime one comes up it seems like that's the one, but then something always happens. I have high hopes and just keep praying, but days like today really try my patience...even hubby said, "See, this is why I'm so ready to move!"
Anyway, I got my prescription and some really good cold and sinus meds and I'm headed to bed. Praying that tomorrow will be a better day...if I'm down much longer all of my hard work will be in vain, hubby just can't keep up! LOL! I did get in a couple loads of laundry, cleaned up the supper dishes (thank you hubby) and picked up the kids toys before they went to bed, so it hasn't all fallen apart yet.
Until tomorrow,...
Terra
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Mother Nature...really?!?!
Ladies...I'm only bouncing on here for a moment because I guess Mother Nature's mood swings have done me in! I woke up with a horrible head ache, sore throat, stuffy nose and lots of congestion. I tried really hard not to let it get me down. I did a couple of loads of laundry, switched over the dishes, and I even cooked LJ and hubby breakfast before they left this morning!
Miss E was a crazy woman last night and we didn't get much sleep, so she slept late this morning and I could have gotten a lot done in Ash's room but I just couldn't...ugh...so sickly.
We had to run to town in the afternoon for few errands and then church and business meeting tonight...now I'm waiting for Nyquil to do to me what I hear so many say it does to them. I was supposed to place a Scentsy order tonight...but it'll just have to wait.
I guess we all have to have down days right? I'm just relieved hubby is off now until Monday so I can maybe recooperate and keep on trucking!
Until tomorrow...Terra
Miss E was a crazy woman last night and we didn't get much sleep, so she slept late this morning and I could have gotten a lot done in Ash's room but I just couldn't...ugh...so sickly.
We had to run to town in the afternoon for few errands and then church and business meeting tonight...now I'm waiting for Nyquil to do to me what I hear so many say it does to them. I was supposed to place a Scentsy order tonight...but it'll just have to wait.
I guess we all have to have down days right? I'm just relieved hubby is off now until Monday so I can maybe recooperate and keep on trucking!
Until tomorrow...Terra
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Stick a fork in me...
I don't know what's gotten into me but I like it and I'm taking advantage of it while it lasts...hopefully from now on...but...we'll see!
Today was another work my hiney off day. More dishes and more laundry...I swear...my children dirty up more clothes in one day than most children do in a week! Lol! And towels...I try everyday to get them to dry off in the bathroom they are in and leave the towel there, but they want to wrap up in the towel and wander off somewhere else before the drop it and leave it. Then by the time I find it I don't know whether it's clean or dirty so I wash it anyway. Hubby got in trouble today about laundry...we have a love seat in our bedroom and usually he puts clothes that he's going to "recycle" on there, but today, I had had enough...I sorted through it and washed it...he had a full load just by himself!
In my handy dandy 2013 planner, it has a place for notes on the opposite page of each week, so I've been writing my menu, goals, and things to do on there. One thing on my goal for this week was the garage. Christmas stuff was all still down off the shelves and there were four...yes four boxes of stuff I had cleaned out of my car the last...I guess four times I cleaned it out. I went through all of those boxes and put things away and guess what...more laundry...yay! Lol!
Miss E and I colored, read books and worked a puzzle...over and over! I really just think she's wanting to spend time at home with her mommy. When LJ got home he played ABC Mouse. I love that...if you haven't checked it our for your kiddos you should. I was getting worried about him with the video games that last few days. He's had an iPod for a while, but he usually only plays on it when we're going somewhere or at a restaurant of something. We have a wii, but he rarely asks to play it. Last year we got an xbox 360 and just recently kind of got into it so they all got xbox games for Christmas this year. He played his Lego Batman game for a little while right after Christmas but then lost interest...well, he went to a birthday party the other day and the little boy had it and had reached level 2. This sparked his interest again and he's been hooked. I have talked to him about doing other things that will make him stronger or smarter but he just said, "I know." So anyway, I was so proud to see him get on abcmouse.com and start checking things off his chore list as soon as he got home!
Hubby cooked deer tonight and I fixed some yummy potoato rounds I found on pinterest. The kids ate great and we were ready for bed early!
Well, I've already got lots on my list for tomorrow and my back is killing me...I'm going to bed and I hope it feels better in the morning...until tomorrow...
Terra
Today was another work my hiney off day. More dishes and more laundry...I swear...my children dirty up more clothes in one day than most children do in a week! Lol! And towels...I try everyday to get them to dry off in the bathroom they are in and leave the towel there, but they want to wrap up in the towel and wander off somewhere else before the drop it and leave it. Then by the time I find it I don't know whether it's clean or dirty so I wash it anyway. Hubby got in trouble today about laundry...we have a love seat in our bedroom and usually he puts clothes that he's going to "recycle" on there, but today, I had had enough...I sorted through it and washed it...he had a full load just by himself!
In my handy dandy 2013 planner, it has a place for notes on the opposite page of each week, so I've been writing my menu, goals, and things to do on there. One thing on my goal for this week was the garage. Christmas stuff was all still down off the shelves and there were four...yes four boxes of stuff I had cleaned out of my car the last...I guess four times I cleaned it out. I went through all of those boxes and put things away and guess what...more laundry...yay! Lol!
Miss E and I colored, read books and worked a puzzle...over and over! I really just think she's wanting to spend time at home with her mommy. When LJ got home he played ABC Mouse. I love that...if you haven't checked it our for your kiddos you should. I was getting worried about him with the video games that last few days. He's had an iPod for a while, but he usually only plays on it when we're going somewhere or at a restaurant of something. We have a wii, but he rarely asks to play it. Last year we got an xbox 360 and just recently kind of got into it so they all got xbox games for Christmas this year. He played his Lego Batman game for a little while right after Christmas but then lost interest...well, he went to a birthday party the other day and the little boy had it and had reached level 2. This sparked his interest again and he's been hooked. I have talked to him about doing other things that will make him stronger or smarter but he just said, "I know." So anyway, I was so proud to see him get on abcmouse.com and start checking things off his chore list as soon as he got home!
Hubby cooked deer tonight and I fixed some yummy potoato rounds I found on pinterest. The kids ate great and we were ready for bed early!
Well, I've already got lots on my list for tomorrow and my back is killing me...I'm going to bed and I hope it feels better in the morning...until tomorrow...
Terra
Monday, January 28, 2013
Don't Wanna Jinks It...
Holy cow...I can not believe it was like 75 degrees today...January 28!!! Crazy! Don't get me wrong...I love it, it's just so weird. Since it was so nice today I worked a little outside. We still had a deflated santa, a moving deer, and some lights out in the front yard, so I got out there and took all of that down and put back in the garage. The backyard was a mess...toys everywhere, so E and I got out there and cleaned that all up. Then when LJ got home I was so glad they got to go outside and play for a while before karate.
Speaking of karate, LJ loves going there and I love that he gets the extra excersise. That's why I had put Miss E in dance. She seemed to like it for a while, but here lately it has just become a huge struggle and I leave there wanting to scream. She doesn't do anything she's supposed to be doing and just runs around crazy. I thought she would really get into it because she loved the tap shoes and she does the dance they've been working on at home, but she just won't participate in the class. The last two weeks when it has been time to go she tells me no, so I haven't made her go. I'm wondering if I enroll her in the mommy and me gymnastics class if she'll behave...we did it last year, but she was still pretty small...she's gotten crazier since then!
She also hasn't been wanting to go to MDO. LJ went through a phase like that...I think they get bored. She's the oldest in her class and I just wonder if she can't really play with the other kids in her class. Anyway, I haven't made her go there either because I think she just wants to hang out with me and how can I not let her?!? We've been working on her speech and learning colors and letters, so she's still getting stimulated and we're getting one on one time...I'm thinking maybe we can start working on potty training now too.
Since I've been out of my slump I've really worked my hiney off...even with her here. I've stayed on top of the laundry and dishes, both kids' rooms are clean, my car is clean, my bedroom, and both bathrooms are clean. Ash's room, closet and bathroom are my next project...I've been storing things that need to go to Good Will or consignment in her closet and it has started to get out of control. When everything is caught up though I feel like I can take on projects like that. Just like Friday night...I stayed up all night working in the mudroom, which is also my office. It hasn't been this clean probably since we moved in...5 years ago! Hubby asked me today if I was on crack! I don't have an explaination of why I have such ups and downs. I know I'm happier when the house is all clean, which in turn means I continue to get more stuff done. Maybe I'm bipolar...I don't know...
LJ used to get allowance and that worked pretty good to get him to help me pick up toys. I put the allowance on hold through December and explained to him all of our money was going toward Christmas presents and he really didn't need to be going to Wal-mart and spending his money on toys during that time anyway. He asked me yesterday when he could get allowance again, so we talked about how he had to work to earn money and tonight we printed out some chore charts. He has several more responsibilities than he used to, but he seemed excited to be doing such big boy jobs. We'll see how it goes!
Now that I made that statement earlier about being bipolar, I'm kind of starting to worry about it...maybe I should read more about it, but I don't feel like my highs and lows go that extreme...
Anyway, I think this is the earliest I've ever blogged and I'm going to take advantage of being done early and get some rest! Until tomorrow...
Terra
Speaking of karate, LJ loves going there and I love that he gets the extra excersise. That's why I had put Miss E in dance. She seemed to like it for a while, but here lately it has just become a huge struggle and I leave there wanting to scream. She doesn't do anything she's supposed to be doing and just runs around crazy. I thought she would really get into it because she loved the tap shoes and she does the dance they've been working on at home, but she just won't participate in the class. The last two weeks when it has been time to go she tells me no, so I haven't made her go. I'm wondering if I enroll her in the mommy and me gymnastics class if she'll behave...we did it last year, but she was still pretty small...she's gotten crazier since then!
She also hasn't been wanting to go to MDO. LJ went through a phase like that...I think they get bored. She's the oldest in her class and I just wonder if she can't really play with the other kids in her class. Anyway, I haven't made her go there either because I think she just wants to hang out with me and how can I not let her?!? We've been working on her speech and learning colors and letters, so she's still getting stimulated and we're getting one on one time...I'm thinking maybe we can start working on potty training now too.
Since I've been out of my slump I've really worked my hiney off...even with her here. I've stayed on top of the laundry and dishes, both kids' rooms are clean, my car is clean, my bedroom, and both bathrooms are clean. Ash's room, closet and bathroom are my next project...I've been storing things that need to go to Good Will or consignment in her closet and it has started to get out of control. When everything is caught up though I feel like I can take on projects like that. Just like Friday night...I stayed up all night working in the mudroom, which is also my office. It hasn't been this clean probably since we moved in...5 years ago! Hubby asked me today if I was on crack! I don't have an explaination of why I have such ups and downs. I know I'm happier when the house is all clean, which in turn means I continue to get more stuff done. Maybe I'm bipolar...I don't know...
LJ used to get allowance and that worked pretty good to get him to help me pick up toys. I put the allowance on hold through December and explained to him all of our money was going toward Christmas presents and he really didn't need to be going to Wal-mart and spending his money on toys during that time anyway. He asked me yesterday when he could get allowance again, so we talked about how he had to work to earn money and tonight we printed out some chore charts. He has several more responsibilities than he used to, but he seemed excited to be doing such big boy jobs. We'll see how it goes!
Now that I made that statement earlier about being bipolar, I'm kind of starting to worry about it...maybe I should read more about it, but I don't feel like my highs and lows go that extreme...
Anyway, I think this is the earliest I've ever blogged and I'm going to take advantage of being done early and get some rest! Until tomorrow...
Terra
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Coming to terms
Wow...I'm so sorry to those of you who were enjoying my blog...let me explain.
I think I went into the new year with all these goals expecting it to just automatically all change and fall into place. I slowly but surely faced the reality that it was harder than that. I got really bogged down...bogged down into feeling like I was failing. We've talked about it in ladies group before, which really made me feel better, but we all go through these "pits." Well, I slipped into a pit. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to see anyone, I didn't want to take care of my kids, I didn't want to clean my house, I just wanted to stay in bed and cover up my head. After a few good conversations with my best friend, a little bit of re-connecting with my rock (my hubby), and lots of nights in prayer, I climbed myself right up outta there! Hallelujah! I hate that feeling...knowing how you're acting, and knowing it's affecting others, really wanting to fix it, but not really knowing how to. It kind of just has to run it's course and go away.
Then just this weekend, two girls from church asked me why I hadn't been blogging. It made me feel really good to know I actually had readers, but what they said about the blog made me feel even better. They said it was good to know they weren't the only ones who had days like that. They made a connection...we connected even though I had no idea they were even interested in the blog...I LOVE IT!!! We are real moms, real wives, real Christians, real people with real problems and if we would all just admit it, face it, and talk about it to each other we could probably move away from those pits a little easier. For example, a couple of weeks ago I was standing in church during praise and worship and realized I was sucking in my stomach. Why? I was surrounded by people who are my FAMILY. We all love each other...why did I feel like I had to make myself appear differently that I really am? I watched an episode of Katie the other night and they were talking about loving ourselves for who we are. Sure we can wear make up to enhance our beauty, but do we really need to be all painted up to feel good about ourselves? And as far as weight loss goes, sure if you are at an unhealthy weight, diet and exercise is suggested, but not everyone is a size 2, so stop trying to be.
So, this blog may take a slight turn. I think I started out with such high expectations I really got down when I was turning into the perfect woman, mother, wive, Christian, friend, etc, overnight. Organization can happen, but it takes time, and everyone's abilities are different and we should be. God made us to be us. I think when I discussed the women I admired I was comparing myself to them and we can't do that. We can all strive to be better, but not just like others...we can only be the best WE can be and God loves us that way, our children love us that way, our husbands love us that way, and our friends love us that way. So, I will continue to blog, I will continue to work hard, and I will continue to talk about my days, good or bad, to you ladies...sometimes to entertain, sometimes to make you cry, and sometimes just to connect to someone and know that you are not alone in those struggles you face everyday, whether you are a stay at home mom, a school teacher, a student, or a nurse. We all need each other and I love you!
Until tomorrow!!!
Terra
I think I went into the new year with all these goals expecting it to just automatically all change and fall into place. I slowly but surely faced the reality that it was harder than that. I got really bogged down...bogged down into feeling like I was failing. We've talked about it in ladies group before, which really made me feel better, but we all go through these "pits." Well, I slipped into a pit. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to see anyone, I didn't want to take care of my kids, I didn't want to clean my house, I just wanted to stay in bed and cover up my head. After a few good conversations with my best friend, a little bit of re-connecting with my rock (my hubby), and lots of nights in prayer, I climbed myself right up outta there! Hallelujah! I hate that feeling...knowing how you're acting, and knowing it's affecting others, really wanting to fix it, but not really knowing how to. It kind of just has to run it's course and go away.
Then just this weekend, two girls from church asked me why I hadn't been blogging. It made me feel really good to know I actually had readers, but what they said about the blog made me feel even better. They said it was good to know they weren't the only ones who had days like that. They made a connection...we connected even though I had no idea they were even interested in the blog...I LOVE IT!!! We are real moms, real wives, real Christians, real people with real problems and if we would all just admit it, face it, and talk about it to each other we could probably move away from those pits a little easier. For example, a couple of weeks ago I was standing in church during praise and worship and realized I was sucking in my stomach. Why? I was surrounded by people who are my FAMILY. We all love each other...why did I feel like I had to make myself appear differently that I really am? I watched an episode of Katie the other night and they were talking about loving ourselves for who we are. Sure we can wear make up to enhance our beauty, but do we really need to be all painted up to feel good about ourselves? And as far as weight loss goes, sure if you are at an unhealthy weight, diet and exercise is suggested, but not everyone is a size 2, so stop trying to be.
So, this blog may take a slight turn. I think I started out with such high expectations I really got down when I was turning into the perfect woman, mother, wive, Christian, friend, etc, overnight. Organization can happen, but it takes time, and everyone's abilities are different and we should be. God made us to be us. I think when I discussed the women I admired I was comparing myself to them and we can't do that. We can all strive to be better, but not just like others...we can only be the best WE can be and God loves us that way, our children love us that way, our husbands love us that way, and our friends love us that way. So, I will continue to blog, I will continue to work hard, and I will continue to talk about my days, good or bad, to you ladies...sometimes to entertain, sometimes to make you cry, and sometimes just to connect to someone and know that you are not alone in those struggles you face everyday, whether you are a stay at home mom, a school teacher, a student, or a nurse. We all need each other and I love you!
Until tomorrow!!!
Terra
Monday, January 14, 2013
I'm back
Well...I've been a little MIA on this blog for a few days. I decided I'd better start "blogging" to my husband a little more. We had to have a little sit down and communicate weekend. I find myself lost in my role of mother sometimes I think, and I forget that I'm a wife also. I get so wrapped up in taking care of, picking up after, and chasing these kids that I don't take the time to slow down, love on, and talk to my husband.
I'm feeling a little more back to myself now and I had a few moments, so I figured I'd sit down and type a while. Since I've been away from the computer I got my tree down...yay! I finally got tired of looking at it, and my living room a mess and I didn't want to clean up AROUND it one more time! Now I keep finding little ornaments Miss E has hidden strategically throughout the house...oh well...all the boxes are still in the mudroom...but at least I made a little progress.
I'm still extremely sleepy. I don't know if my body is trying to fight something off, or if I'm just lazy. Lazy I think. But when I went to the OB she suggested having my B12 checked...still haven't heard from lab, but I think I will start taking some just in case. Couldn't hurt.
Also...in the last few days we've started planning a spring break trip. A friend had asked us to go to Universal Studios with her family, and that sounds GREAT...I would love to, but we decided we really shouldn't spend that kind of money that particular time of year. After some brainstorming we decided to go down to Beavers Bend and rent a cabin. We invited that friend and her family, and also my very bestest friend and her family. It is going to be so very fun! Our cabin is beautiful and the kids are going to love it!
Well...I think I'm going to bounce off here for now...do a little laundry switching and get LJ ready for karate. I also have my church ladies meeting/get together tonight...we're drawing for secret pals and I can't wait to see who I get!!!
Until tomorrow...or whenever!
I'm feeling a little more back to myself now and I had a few moments, so I figured I'd sit down and type a while. Since I've been away from the computer I got my tree down...yay! I finally got tired of looking at it, and my living room a mess and I didn't want to clean up AROUND it one more time! Now I keep finding little ornaments Miss E has hidden strategically throughout the house...oh well...all the boxes are still in the mudroom...but at least I made a little progress.
I'm still extremely sleepy. I don't know if my body is trying to fight something off, or if I'm just lazy. Lazy I think. But when I went to the OB she suggested having my B12 checked...still haven't heard from lab, but I think I will start taking some just in case. Couldn't hurt.
Also...in the last few days we've started planning a spring break trip. A friend had asked us to go to Universal Studios with her family, and that sounds GREAT...I would love to, but we decided we really shouldn't spend that kind of money that particular time of year. After some brainstorming we decided to go down to Beavers Bend and rent a cabin. We invited that friend and her family, and also my very bestest friend and her family. It is going to be so very fun! Our cabin is beautiful and the kids are going to love it!
Well...I think I'm going to bounce off here for now...do a little laundry switching and get LJ ready for karate. I also have my church ladies meeting/get together tonight...we're drawing for secret pals and I can't wait to see who I get!!!
Until tomorrow...or whenever!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
It IS exhausting
Bleh. I just want to go to bed. WHY?!?! I wish I knew. I have NO energy and the best way to describe how I feel is "droopy." I feel bad for my family...I'm just kind of here.
The trip to the doctor was so-so. Check up was fine, but when I talked to her about the exhaustion, low drive, etc, and asked about hormones, she sent me over to have my B12 checked. Pretty sure that was checked not very long ago...but we'll see what they say.
I messed around town after the appointment because there was very little time until time to pick up the kids and hubby was in a meeting. When I got the kids we just came home and hung out until hubby finally decided we'd just run up town to grab a bite.
I love my kids and I would not trade them for anything and I would die before I let anything happen to them, but they make me plum crazy. The fight like cats and dogs from the time they first see each other to the time they go to bed. LJ used to be real bad about constantly needing a drink, a snack, another drink, etc, etc, lol! But as he's getting older he's getting more independent. E on the other hand does things LJ NEVER did. She destroys everything she sees. If it is possible to break, she will break it. She doesn't play with toys VERY often, when she goes to her room and gets quiet it means she has climbed up and gotten into something she's not supposed to have and made a huge mess with whatever it is. Whew...okay...glad I got that out. I know it's just a struggle that comes with parent hood...but I'm exhausted.
I was thinking about what kind of literature I need to dive into...besides the Word of course, and I looked at all these books I've bought in the past few years with good intentions. Books about being a mother, books about being a good wife, books about being a step mother, books about being a children's minister, books about organizing your home, books about not losing your temper, books about cooking healthy, books about EVERYTHING. I think I'm scared to read them. I'm already exhausted. If I read all of that and crammed all of that knowledge into my brain I'd be done for. Stick a fork in me...I'd be done. How exhausting would that be?!?!
Until tomorrow!
The trip to the doctor was so-so. Check up was fine, but when I talked to her about the exhaustion, low drive, etc, and asked about hormones, she sent me over to have my B12 checked. Pretty sure that was checked not very long ago...but we'll see what they say.
I messed around town after the appointment because there was very little time until time to pick up the kids and hubby was in a meeting. When I got the kids we just came home and hung out until hubby finally decided we'd just run up town to grab a bite.
I love my kids and I would not trade them for anything and I would die before I let anything happen to them, but they make me plum crazy. The fight like cats and dogs from the time they first see each other to the time they go to bed. LJ used to be real bad about constantly needing a drink, a snack, another drink, etc, etc, lol! But as he's getting older he's getting more independent. E on the other hand does things LJ NEVER did. She destroys everything she sees. If it is possible to break, she will break it. She doesn't play with toys VERY often, when she goes to her room and gets quiet it means she has climbed up and gotten into something she's not supposed to have and made a huge mess with whatever it is. Whew...okay...glad I got that out. I know it's just a struggle that comes with parent hood...but I'm exhausted.
I was thinking about what kind of literature I need to dive into...besides the Word of course, and I looked at all these books I've bought in the past few years with good intentions. Books about being a mother, books about being a good wife, books about being a step mother, books about being a children's minister, books about organizing your home, books about not losing your temper, books about cooking healthy, books about EVERYTHING. I think I'm scared to read them. I'm already exhausted. If I read all of that and crammed all of that knowledge into my brain I'd be done for. Stick a fork in me...I'd be done. How exhausting would that be?!?!
Until tomorrow!
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Figuring things out
I'm proud to report today was a pretty "normal" day. Hubby was back in OKC today so it was just me and the kiddos. LJ got more for breakfast today than a honey bun and the lunch I sent with him was big and nutritious...yay!!!
I spent the afternoon working on church paperwork and planning out our next few memory verses.
We had several more kiddos in class tonight and they were all so excited to start memorizing their verses. I have promised them an ice cream party at the end of the month if they all get all four verses memorized. If it goes over well, we may have to do it next month too!
I'm getting a little nervous...I'm going to the OB tomorrow. I'm hoping to get the ball rolling on figuring out why I have no energy, no desire to get out of bed, and...shhhh...very low sex drive. I've been on zoloft for several years now...off and on because of pregnancies, etc...because I'm just kind of weepy. Then, about a year ago I told my regular doctor about the lack of energy, etc. and he put me on wellbutrin. I was able to tell a difference in the energy level for a while, but then it slacked off. He did some blood work and told me I was low on vitamin D, which affects energy and I now take over the counter vitamins everyday. I was recently talking to a friend of mine who had experienced similar symtoms and she suggested having my testosterone checked. I didn't even realize women even needed that, but apparently it affects our body too and can really mess things up. I'm hoping my OB will do some blood work or something to help me get things figured out. I know I have the desire to do and be better, but then each day I just don't...it's like I'm stuck and can't get going.
I can't wait to see what she has to say, and I've got plans to some organizing tomorrow since hubby will be off. Until tomorrow!
I spent the afternoon working on church paperwork and planning out our next few memory verses.
We had several more kiddos in class tonight and they were all so excited to start memorizing their verses. I have promised them an ice cream party at the end of the month if they all get all four verses memorized. If it goes over well, we may have to do it next month too!
I'm getting a little nervous...I'm going to the OB tomorrow. I'm hoping to get the ball rolling on figuring out why I have no energy, no desire to get out of bed, and...shhhh...very low sex drive. I've been on zoloft for several years now...off and on because of pregnancies, etc...because I'm just kind of weepy. Then, about a year ago I told my regular doctor about the lack of energy, etc. and he put me on wellbutrin. I was able to tell a difference in the energy level for a while, but then it slacked off. He did some blood work and told me I was low on vitamin D, which affects energy and I now take over the counter vitamins everyday. I was recently talking to a friend of mine who had experienced similar symtoms and she suggested having my testosterone checked. I didn't even realize women even needed that, but apparently it affects our body too and can really mess things up. I'm hoping my OB will do some blood work or something to help me get things figured out. I know I have the desire to do and be better, but then each day I just don't...it's like I'm stuck and can't get going.
I can't wait to see what she has to say, and I've got plans to some organizing tomorrow since hubby will be off. Until tomorrow!
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
No complaining
Today I feel as though as I'm failing miserably at what my goal was to make of myself. I keep telling myself God's plans are better than mine and all of my faith is in Him, but I think He surely wants me to be all that I can be...and I feel like I'm just not measuring up. Nothing is going as planned...but I'm going with the flow.
LJ woke up around 1:30 am last night crying with his ear hurting. No fever...just an ear ache. I gave him ibuprophen but the poor baby kept asking when it would stop hurting...so around 2:30 I gave him a half of a melatonin to help him rest. So I was exhausted when it was time to wake up. I pushed snooze I have no idea how many times and before I finally got him up. He got into the shower, no problem, but then when he was getting dressed he told me his throat was hurting too. I took that opportunity to put him back to bed and crawl back in too. Both kids and I slept another 3 hours before we finally got up and got ready to go into town to drop E off at MDO and head to the doctor's office. My poor boy tested positive for strep, has a sinus infection and an ear infection. After the doctor it was time to go back and pick E up. I had so much I needed and wanted to do...but it is near impossible to take care of business with both kiddos in tow.
We came home and I let the kids destroy the living room while I sat on the web hunting down some new recipes.
Miss E had dance tonight, but after that I FINALLY got to go to the grocery store, which has been on my to do list since the weekend. Now...I'm finally unwinding (way later than I want) and making my plans for tomorrow. We shall see what happens...
I complained a little to hubby tonight about how things just weren't going my way and how much I still had left to do before I go to bed, but then I got to thinking about it...my goal of being a better me didn't include talking about how much I do or need to do or don't want to do. It didn't include complaining about any of it. What I want and need is a better attitude to deal with the things that get thrown my way. When I take on the attitude I've had today it only makes me weak and a target for satan. I want to sign off tonight with some lyrics from one my favorite songs right now by Plumb.
Until tomorrow...
Well everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got ta wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
'Cause oh I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.
LJ woke up around 1:30 am last night crying with his ear hurting. No fever...just an ear ache. I gave him ibuprophen but the poor baby kept asking when it would stop hurting...so around 2:30 I gave him a half of a melatonin to help him rest. So I was exhausted when it was time to wake up. I pushed snooze I have no idea how many times and before I finally got him up. He got into the shower, no problem, but then when he was getting dressed he told me his throat was hurting too. I took that opportunity to put him back to bed and crawl back in too. Both kids and I slept another 3 hours before we finally got up and got ready to go into town to drop E off at MDO and head to the doctor's office. My poor boy tested positive for strep, has a sinus infection and an ear infection. After the doctor it was time to go back and pick E up. I had so much I needed and wanted to do...but it is near impossible to take care of business with both kiddos in tow.
We came home and I let the kids destroy the living room while I sat on the web hunting down some new recipes.
Miss E had dance tonight, but after that I FINALLY got to go to the grocery store, which has been on my to do list since the weekend. Now...I'm finally unwinding (way later than I want) and making my plans for tomorrow. We shall see what happens...
I complained a little to hubby tonight about how things just weren't going my way and how much I still had left to do before I go to bed, but then I got to thinking about it...my goal of being a better me didn't include talking about how much I do or need to do or don't want to do. It didn't include complaining about any of it. What I want and need is a better attitude to deal with the things that get thrown my way. When I take on the attitude I've had today it only makes me weak and a target for satan. I want to sign off tonight with some lyrics from one my favorite songs right now by Plumb.
Until tomorrow...
Well everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got ta wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
'Cause oh I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this?"
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.
Monday, January 7, 2013
Learning Experience
It is very, very late, so tonight's post will be short. But here are some things I'm learning as I focus on my goals.
1. I want the house tidy, clothes laid out, and lunches packed before bed.
2. It's okay to have a play day with E ever now and then...as long as the above gets done.
3. It is near impossible to sit in the lobby at the gym for an hour with E as LJ does Karate.
4. Moods are contagious, bad mood trumps good mood.
As I ready myself for sleep, I am satisfied with the house, the kids' things are ready to go, and I'm in a good mood. Lol. Tomorrow is another big day for my hopes and goals as E heads back to MDO...can't wait to see what all I'm able to accomplish!
1. I want the house tidy, clothes laid out, and lunches packed before bed.
2. It's okay to have a play day with E ever now and then...as long as the above gets done.
3. It is near impossible to sit in the lobby at the gym for an hour with E as LJ does Karate.
4. Moods are contagious, bad mood trumps good mood.
As I ready myself for sleep, I am satisfied with the house, the kids' things are ready to go, and I'm in a good mood. Lol. Tomorrow is another big day for my hopes and goals as E heads back to MDO...can't wait to see what all I'm able to accomplish!
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Nice things
Well, I'd have to say today was a pretty great day. I got up before anyone else...which is what needs to happen. Don't you think? Mama needs to get ready first so that she can get everyone else ready, right? So, we all got ready and headed to church. I am a little disappointed that I obviously just can NOT have a nice pair of sunglasses. I really like the sunglasses from Montana West. They are not hundred dollar sunglasses, but their not dollar store sunglasses. The first pair I had E picked up one night and pulled on both ear pieces as hard as she could until they snapped. Ugh! So, my kind hubby bought me an even prettier pair for Christmas. They of course have bling, but these had beautiful turquoise pieces on them...we get into the car, I grab my shades, and one of my turquoise jewels is gone! Guess I'll go to the dollar store and quit trying to be glamorous! Hahaha! Anyway, it always seems like no matter how early (or late) or we are for church I feel rushed to get everything done by the time praise and worship starts. Whether it's making copies, writing checks, handing out mail, or getting snacks ready, I'm sweating by the time I sit down. Today, I ended up in the nursery finishing up my paperwork and totally missed praise and worship. Thank goodness for a great sound system!
Then came my joy.
Have I mentioned how much I love my kiddos in the children's ministry? Oh! They are precious babies! Today we talked about how much Jesus taught, healed, and saved people when he walked the earth. I love the looks on their faces when they really start getting it. Today, I listened as my own son told me what it meant to be baptised. Oh my goodness...I'm doing something right...no, I take that back, God is doing something right through me! Praise God!
After church we headed to hubby's hometown to celebrate his grandmother's 95th birthday! He comes from a huge family and they all love Grandma Opal! I did have one ugly episode while we were there. From the moment we walked in hubby was visiting with the men folk which left me to tend to the kiddos. I was fine with that...until time to fix plates. There was so much food, we had two lines to walk through, and I had three plates in my hands and two kids under my heels. We made it all the to the end of the second line when BAM...Landon's plate slid off the edge of the table where I had sat it to load him up with some pickles. He looked at me fearfully thinking it was his fault, which it wasn't and my temper flared...hubby was half way across the room and I said (yelled...just a little), "Hey Alan! Do you think you could maybe, possibly, help me just a little?!?!" Then I swallowed my tongue...oops! Hehe! Got his attention though and he was more than willing to help the rest of the time we were there. And guess what...when we got to the table I had ONE thing, out of two lines of food, on my plate. Man...I needed a breather.
Put it into perspective.
Along came MIL, who I LOVE visiting with. Now this grandmother is her mother and at 95 years of age she could out run me. I promise. And she is so funny! But after suffering some falls and some other health issues and hospitalizations she has been placed in a care center. Ever now and then grandma can come up with some stories, we think she likes the attention, but other times, she really does think what she says is true, but what is so weird and I will never understand unless I make it 95, is she later realizes when she says something totally wrong. Like thinking her husband, who passed years ago, is alive, and then hours later saying, "I can't believe I said that, I know he's gone." It's amazing how the mind works, but even more amazing how the mind works after 95 years. We took tons and tons of pictures today, and I think I'll try for the first time I'll try to upload an image tonight, but the sweetest thing...after the party was over and everyone was starting to fade out, Grandma Opal said, "See y'all here again next year!" Love it!
Getting ready.
Welp, the kiddos were in bed earlier tonight than they have all year...hahaha...and the backpack is ready, clothes laid out, lunch box packed. Tomorrow I will start anew. I intend on printing off my cool little organizational printables I've found on pinterest and seeing which ones of them will really help me, making my lists, and planning week. I can't wait to see how it goes. But I know that even my hopes fail, God's plans prevail!
Until tomorrow!
Then came my joy.
Have I mentioned how much I love my kiddos in the children's ministry? Oh! They are precious babies! Today we talked about how much Jesus taught, healed, and saved people when he walked the earth. I love the looks on their faces when they really start getting it. Today, I listened as my own son told me what it meant to be baptised. Oh my goodness...I'm doing something right...no, I take that back, God is doing something right through me! Praise God!
After church we headed to hubby's hometown to celebrate his grandmother's 95th birthday! He comes from a huge family and they all love Grandma Opal! I did have one ugly episode while we were there. From the moment we walked in hubby was visiting with the men folk which left me to tend to the kiddos. I was fine with that...until time to fix plates. There was so much food, we had two lines to walk through, and I had three plates in my hands and two kids under my heels. We made it all the to the end of the second line when BAM...Landon's plate slid off the edge of the table where I had sat it to load him up with some pickles. He looked at me fearfully thinking it was his fault, which it wasn't and my temper flared...hubby was half way across the room and I said (yelled...just a little), "Hey Alan! Do you think you could maybe, possibly, help me just a little?!?!" Then I swallowed my tongue...oops! Hehe! Got his attention though and he was more than willing to help the rest of the time we were there. And guess what...when we got to the table I had ONE thing, out of two lines of food, on my plate. Man...I needed a breather.
Put it into perspective.
Along came MIL, who I LOVE visiting with. Now this grandmother is her mother and at 95 years of age she could out run me. I promise. And she is so funny! But after suffering some falls and some other health issues and hospitalizations she has been placed in a care center. Ever now and then grandma can come up with some stories, we think she likes the attention, but other times, she really does think what she says is true, but what is so weird and I will never understand unless I make it 95, is she later realizes when she says something totally wrong. Like thinking her husband, who passed years ago, is alive, and then hours later saying, "I can't believe I said that, I know he's gone." It's amazing how the mind works, but even more amazing how the mind works after 95 years. We took tons and tons of pictures today, and I think I'll try for the first time I'll try to upload an image tonight, but the sweetest thing...after the party was over and everyone was starting to fade out, Grandma Opal said, "See y'all here again next year!" Love it!
Getting ready.
Welp, the kiddos were in bed earlier tonight than they have all year...hahaha...and the backpack is ready, clothes laid out, lunch box packed. Tomorrow I will start anew. I intend on printing off my cool little organizational printables I've found on pinterest and seeing which ones of them will really help me, making my lists, and planning week. I can't wait to see how it goes. But I know that even my hopes fail, God's plans prevail!
Until tomorrow!
Saturday, January 5, 2013
You're just a coyote...every dog has it's day
The kids and I hung out today while daddy did a coyote hunt, then we went to a cousin's birthday party. After the party we headed out to meet hubby at the place where they weighed in the coyotes. Not really a fun place for mamas and kiddos, but we missed our daddy. Then we loaded him and my brother in law up for dinner. Now that we're home and should be ready for bed the kids have reached their energy peak.
The title of tonight's blog is a little silly, but I thought it was really funny tonight after the coyote hunt, we're eating at Applebee's and they are playing red dirt music and that song came on. Hahaha...so many little coyotes had their day today.
Okay, so anyway, I'm really kinda dreading Monday. That means it's time for us to get back to reality. LJ goes back to school and karate on Monday and E goes back to Mother's Day Out and dance on Tuesday. I'm losing my excuse for not getting anything done now. Time to get the Christmas tree down, grocery shopping done, and I'm also hoping on Tuesdays and Thursdays to head on over to my mama's and work on upkeep. Bless her heart, her plate is full. She works 8-5, then runs errands for my grandmother who is in an assisted living home, usually has meds to pick up at the pharmacy for my dad, then when she goes home she has dinner to deal with and whatever my dad may throw at her from his (own) business. By about 9pm she's finally done, but then it's time to get ready for the next day and she's pooped. I'm hoping to help her out this year. I've been promising this to her for many years, but I'm praying this is the one. I say Tuesdays and Thursdays because those are the days E goes to Mothers Day Out. But those are the days I also need to focus on things of my own that I can't do when she's around, like Scentsy business, grocery shopping, and folding laundry. One good thing about my husband having such an odd schedule is that there will always be at least one week day that he is off work and she can hang out with him.
I am however looking forward to church in the morning, so I better go lay some clothes out and get some sleep...until tomorrow...
The title of tonight's blog is a little silly, but I thought it was really funny tonight after the coyote hunt, we're eating at Applebee's and they are playing red dirt music and that song came on. Hahaha...so many little coyotes had their day today.
Okay, so anyway, I'm really kinda dreading Monday. That means it's time for us to get back to reality. LJ goes back to school and karate on Monday and E goes back to Mother's Day Out and dance on Tuesday. I'm losing my excuse for not getting anything done now. Time to get the Christmas tree down, grocery shopping done, and I'm also hoping on Tuesdays and Thursdays to head on over to my mama's and work on upkeep. Bless her heart, her plate is full. She works 8-5, then runs errands for my grandmother who is in an assisted living home, usually has meds to pick up at the pharmacy for my dad, then when she goes home she has dinner to deal with and whatever my dad may throw at her from his (own) business. By about 9pm she's finally done, but then it's time to get ready for the next day and she's pooped. I'm hoping to help her out this year. I've been promising this to her for many years, but I'm praying this is the one. I say Tuesdays and Thursdays because those are the days E goes to Mothers Day Out. But those are the days I also need to focus on things of my own that I can't do when she's around, like Scentsy business, grocery shopping, and folding laundry. One good thing about my husband having such an odd schedule is that there will always be at least one week day that he is off work and she can hang out with him.
I am however looking forward to church in the morning, so I better go lay some clothes out and get some sleep...until tomorrow...
Friday, January 4, 2013
Not a complete failure
The headache got the best of me. I took my headache medicine last night before bed...which was way too late to be taking it, so I ended up sleeping until mid afternoon...I know...horrible. So I felt guilty and knew I had to make the best of what was left of the day. It took me a while to get going, but I cleaned the living room, started laundry, cleaned the kids room, cooked supper, cleaned my room, folded and put away laundry...yeah...that all sounds great, but it didn't happen in that order and it did NOT happen that easy.
I sat on my butt until it was nearly time for Ashlyn to go home. One thing you must know about Ashlyn is she was diagnosed with ADHD a few years ago and if she doesn't take her pills in the morning, it only takes a few hours to see the difference, so by mid afternoon she was more than my nerves could handle and hubby had to be gone for a few hours. Wow...her and LJ were feeding off each other's energy, so I decided it would be best if I buried myself in a TV show with E. Anyway, I finally got up and picked up the toys, shoes and blankets that cluttered the living room (LJ took his toys to his room), and I started the laundry. Since hubby went coyote hunting after dropping her off, cooking supper was not one of my priorities, so it turned out to be a Hamburger Helper and green bean kinda night. I felt a little guilty since it's actually been quite a while since I've COOKED, but when the kids and I sat down to eat I was quickly rewarded when they both cleaned their plates and LJ said it was his favorite! WHEN I was cooking was fun (sarcasm), I had unloaded the dishwasher and was then rinsing what was in the sink to reload it when along came E. She always likes to help, but then brother bear wanted to help and the two of them proceeded to make a HUGE mess with soapy water, so I yelled. I hated it, but I lost it. There I was, trying to cook, trying to clean, and a new mess was being created at the same time. Ugh. So I told them to find something else to do, LJ immediately grabbed up his iPod, this bugged me since his room looked like a tornado had hit it and Ashlyn never offered to help, so I told him no games until the room was clean. Well this was not totally fair since he had so much help destroying it over the last few days. He ran to his room crying and continued to cry until supper was ready. Feeling horrible, I told him to stop worrying and that I would help him and that I was so sorry for yelling and then we talked about why I got so mad. After supper we clean his and his sister's room and got pj's on and played for a while. Then I cleaned the other rooms and folded the laundry when hubby got home.
I didn't have my shake today, I haven't worked out, though I do plan to before I go to bed. I yelled at my kids, I have barely seen my husband today, but I made up with my kids and I plan to spend the next few hours cuddling with my hubby. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to make the best of it.
I also realized I had been forgetting to talk about what we're praying for each day. Let me catch up. The first day we were praying for my sister. She took her state cosmotology board the next day. The second day I found out on facebook that one of my good friends from high school had lost his mother. The third day my best friend was headed back to work after Christmas break. Today I'm going to be selfish and pray for myself and these goals of mine.
I sat on my butt until it was nearly time for Ashlyn to go home. One thing you must know about Ashlyn is she was diagnosed with ADHD a few years ago and if she doesn't take her pills in the morning, it only takes a few hours to see the difference, so by mid afternoon she was more than my nerves could handle and hubby had to be gone for a few hours. Wow...her and LJ were feeding off each other's energy, so I decided it would be best if I buried myself in a TV show with E. Anyway, I finally got up and picked up the toys, shoes and blankets that cluttered the living room (LJ took his toys to his room), and I started the laundry. Since hubby went coyote hunting after dropping her off, cooking supper was not one of my priorities, so it turned out to be a Hamburger Helper and green bean kinda night. I felt a little guilty since it's actually been quite a while since I've COOKED, but when the kids and I sat down to eat I was quickly rewarded when they both cleaned their plates and LJ said it was his favorite! WHEN I was cooking was fun (sarcasm), I had unloaded the dishwasher and was then rinsing what was in the sink to reload it when along came E. She always likes to help, but then brother bear wanted to help and the two of them proceeded to make a HUGE mess with soapy water, so I yelled. I hated it, but I lost it. There I was, trying to cook, trying to clean, and a new mess was being created at the same time. Ugh. So I told them to find something else to do, LJ immediately grabbed up his iPod, this bugged me since his room looked like a tornado had hit it and Ashlyn never offered to help, so I told him no games until the room was clean. Well this was not totally fair since he had so much help destroying it over the last few days. He ran to his room crying and continued to cry until supper was ready. Feeling horrible, I told him to stop worrying and that I would help him and that I was so sorry for yelling and then we talked about why I got so mad. After supper we clean his and his sister's room and got pj's on and played for a while. Then I cleaned the other rooms and folded the laundry when hubby got home.
I didn't have my shake today, I haven't worked out, though I do plan to before I go to bed. I yelled at my kids, I have barely seen my husband today, but I made up with my kids and I plan to spend the next few hours cuddling with my hubby. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to make the best of it.
I also realized I had been forgetting to talk about what we're praying for each day. Let me catch up. The first day we were praying for my sister. She took her state cosmotology board the next day. The second day I found out on facebook that one of my good friends from high school had lost his mother. The third day my best friend was headed back to work after Christmas break. Today I'm going to be selfish and pray for myself and these goals of mine.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Quality Family Time
Today we took a mini, one day, vacation. We wanted to go to Bricktown before Christmas to enjoy all the activities they had downtown for the kids, but when Ella was diagnosed with pneumonia we knew we had to keep her home and resting until she was well. Since the kids start back to school on Monday and hubby was off today we took advantage of it all. We did the Snow Tubing at Bricktown Ballpark, walked down by the canal, ate at Zio's (my favorite place EVER), took pictures by the beautiful decor they had out at the Devon Tower, then took the kids to Penn Square to Build-A-Bear Workshop. E tried very hard to drive me crazy again (maybe one day she will like to shop), but I must say we all had a BLAST. There were no melt downs, no arguements, and everyone made it back with all of their nerves still entact.
I did my workout and had my shake again, so that was good, but Zio's kind of counteracted anything I may have accomplished. I have been dealing with a horrible headache since last night but I'm not letting it keep me down...usually I would use that as an excuse to stay in bed as long as Alan is off.
I'm throwing ideas around in my head about what all I need to be planning ahead so that I'm not putting things off until the last minute like it seems like I've done the last SEVERAL months. I know we have a birthday party or two to attend this weekend, and one the next, so we've got to get some good gift ideas going (The ones for this weekend are already taken care of). Then I'm thinking about February. February is a crazy month for us, Ash, my dad, Alan, and I all celebrate our birthdays during the month. I'm thinking one HUGE outting with both sides of family. Can't decide on a cake, and can't decide if we need decor...I LOVE going to Scraptopia and making cute things with paper for the little ones' parties, but I'm thinking us grown ups don't really need it. Then...I'm also thinking I really want to do DIY Valentines for LJ's Pre-K class and E's class at Mother's Day Out.
Well, today's blog was pretty short, but I'm really ready for bed!
I did my workout and had my shake again, so that was good, but Zio's kind of counteracted anything I may have accomplished. I have been dealing with a horrible headache since last night but I'm not letting it keep me down...usually I would use that as an excuse to stay in bed as long as Alan is off.
I'm throwing ideas around in my head about what all I need to be planning ahead so that I'm not putting things off until the last minute like it seems like I've done the last SEVERAL months. I know we have a birthday party or two to attend this weekend, and one the next, so we've got to get some good gift ideas going (The ones for this weekend are already taken care of). Then I'm thinking about February. February is a crazy month for us, Ash, my dad, Alan, and I all celebrate our birthdays during the month. I'm thinking one HUGE outting with both sides of family. Can't decide on a cake, and can't decide if we need decor...I LOVE going to Scraptopia and making cute things with paper for the little ones' parties, but I'm thinking us grown ups don't really need it. Then...I'm also thinking I really want to do DIY Valentines for LJ's Pre-K class and E's class at Mother's Day Out.
Well, today's blog was pretty short, but I'm really ready for bed!
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