Thursday, January 10, 2013

It IS exhausting

Bleh. I just want to go to bed. WHY?!?! I wish I knew. I have NO energy and the best way to describe how I feel is "droopy." I feel bad for my family...I'm just kind of here.

The trip to the doctor was so-so. Check up was fine, but when I talked to her about the exhaustion, low drive, etc, and asked about hormones, she sent me over to have my B12 checked. Pretty sure that was checked not very long ago...but we'll see what they say.

I messed around town after the appointment because there was very little time until time to pick up the kids and hubby was in a meeting. When I got the kids we just came home and hung out until hubby finally decided we'd just run up town to grab a bite.

I love my kids and I would not trade them for anything and I would die before I let anything happen to them, but they make me plum crazy. The fight like cats and dogs from the time they first see each other to the time they go to bed. LJ used to be real bad about constantly needing a drink, a snack, another drink, etc, etc, lol! But as he's getting older he's getting more independent. E on the other hand does things LJ NEVER did. She destroys everything she sees. If it is possible to break, she will break it. She doesn't play with toys VERY often, when she goes to her room and gets quiet it means she has climbed up and gotten into something she's not supposed to have and made a huge mess with whatever it is. Whew...okay...glad I got that out. I know it's just a struggle that comes with parent hood...but I'm exhausted.

I was thinking about what kind of literature I need to dive into...besides the Word of course, and I looked at all these books I've bought in the past few years with good intentions. Books about being a mother, books about being a good wife, books about being a step mother, books about being a children's minister, books about organizing your home, books about not losing your temper, books about cooking healthy, books about EVERYTHING. I think I'm scared to read them. I'm already exhausted. If I read all of that and crammed all of that knowledge into my brain I'd be done for. Stick a fork in me...I'd be done. How exhausting would that be?!?!

Until tomorrow!

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